Meet up GODWIN at town today.
Went to Music Essentials to look for my trumpet exams books!
I only managed to find 3?
Looks like I have to special order my books.
Decided to go Yamaha at Plaza Sing then.
I managed to buy one book.
and I got 25 PERCENT DISCOUNT thanks to GODWIN's friend who's working there.
formally from RPWS.wahhaha!
I make a new friend :D
went for SWENSENS.
I love CHOCOLATE MALT xD
GODWIN treated me.
How nice of him!
accompanied me till Bedok and took the same bus as me.
Not exactly accompanied, just because he's meeting his friend at parkway parade. -.=
I went off for work then.

something to reflect about.
Again,its on Self-centeredness.
Give you a scenario:
You're waiting for a bus at the interchange and saw a blind man who just alighted from a bus.
He's trying to walk out of the interchange with the help of a walking stick.

Would you go forward and guild him or at least direct himthe way to walk out of the interchange?

OR

just watch at what he's trying to do?

-a pair of caucasians who blocked his way just tried to avoid him as he was going to bump into them.
-onlookers just looked and stared at what he was doing.

Even for me,I have to learn to go forward to give a helping hand for these people.
It really sets me reflecting on myself,
Whether I'm that heartless to just look and walk away,who dont give a damn about what's going to happen to him.


THIS SOCIETY IS FULL OF HEARTLESS PEOPLE now.
why?

again,
like what I've mentioned.
SELF CENTEREDNESS.

it really kills.

talking to him is really fun!
Yeah,really seriously fun.
and we talked till 3am plus for consecutive 2 days.
you might be thinkin' who I'm referring to.
godwin!
ahhha. he's not officially my trumpet senior yet.
wait till I go for interview/audition into RPWS.
and he had hell lots of craps -.-
really appreciated those people around me who cares.

back to what I did yesterday.
I went for Regent Alumni Band at 10am.
We had combine with Main Band because we're performing together on the graduation cum POP day.
Haven't choose the pieces yet. mm.
I want something challenging like Noah's Ark? (I must be kidding)
We packed our lunch to Anyu's house.
MOVIE DAY!
supposed to go Music Essentials with rafe to get my Music Exams Books!
anyway watched scary movie 4 and Oujia Board at her house with the bandies!
her doorstep really stinks with our shoes.
packed with 17 pairs of shoes!
Went off for work.
While in the bus to bedok,I accidentally dropped my Hp and the memory card came off.
So I panicked and couldn't find.
There's this guy who approached me and showed where my memory card was.
I'm very very thankful :]

Then went to meet RAFE HONG.
We had FREE SATAYS. Lol.
His skin is super duper thick ;x
we talked and shared a lot of things.
rafe, its not CRAP okay :]
I returned home 1230am.
and talked till 3am before I went to sleep.

Philyouth practise is cancelled due to unavailability of prac venue.
Means one less practise to Concert.
:( :( :(

anyway, on the 9th May,SAF band is performing at TAKASHiMAYA in the evening.
on the 20th MAY, SAF Band is performing in my school's cultural Centre.
do look out for more updates and information.
MUAHHAHA.
ALL SHOULD GO since its FREE. :]

BYE people, i'm going out now!
*excited*

School's as great as expected :]
with W34a around,we go bonkas and crazy daily.
we put our class videos on Youtube, and took class photos almost everyday.
muhahaha, I'm falling in love with w34a!

class Breakfast on Monday! :D
remember to wear Republican T-Shirt!

Today we watched 200 pounds beauty 'cos I got the movie from my senior!
Cognitive Process & Problem Solving was our module for today.
One of the modules I enjoyed.
Unfortunately,screwed up during the presentation.
-sighs-
Don't want to talk so much about this actually.
I'm sorry anyway.
My fault that I talked too much.
But prettyyy please be careful with the words you used. (;
Sometimes it hurts the person.

It really annoys me and sets me thinking:

self-centered?
sometimes we must check on ourselves,are we one of those who fall in this category?
Let's give a scenario:
You're working on your RJ(assuming You are left with 1.5 hours to complete) at home and your brother's bugging you to do something(important) for him that would only take up 15 minutes of your time.
Would you ignore him despite its important and continue to do your RJ?
OR
Would you stop and spare him that fifteen minutes of yours to help him out?

This,we have to reflect on ourselves.
Sometimes we're selfish in a way that we do not realise until we reflect on ourselves.

I just realised,I seriously need morning calls every saturday for band :]

some pictures taken in class. :p

such a unique way of taking photo :D
just outside anyu's house. the rest of them were in the lift la. :p
I got morning call from Liting this morning but as usual,I dozed off again.

Didn't attend juniors'band today.

Meet bandies at LJS for lunch.

Rented two movies and quite a handful of us went over to anyu's place to watch.

Ju-On and Scary Movie3.

n the end we just kept on laughing.

I took a train with Hock Huey all the way to Kallang Station!

She's going to her church service while im went to meet rebecca for Philyouth practise.

By the time we reached there was already 745pm.Practise was 7-10pm.

Mr Glosz even asked me to go out and warm myself up!

But it was a quick and brief one for myself.

So I was unable to play well throughout the whole session.

I was very much caught by surprise that he knew that I need long warmups especially on slurrings!

Like,he can read my mind? aouh.

Today was my first time sightreading on Noah's Ark and it's so challenging.

it's also my first time really knowing more of Mr Glosz.

I learnt something new from him today and look forwardto hearing from him even more.

I think I was one of the few who's so engrossed when he talked bout his experiences that I laughed really loud!

In fact,IT is so advanced now ;]

Yaayyyhooo! He said he's going to request if he can bring us to Malaysia just to watch the Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra!

It's just darn cheap to watch a concert there.

I really can't wait man.I badly wants to go!

Anyway,we should all be thankful, that we're PRs and how safe and secure Singapore is. :D

After practise,I asked him about my embrochure.

No wonder my standard is really down there now.

No wonder i depend more on my lower lip.

He said I'm unique to be able to play trumpet despite this kind of embrochure.

Okay, I'm going to change my embrochure for now.

I'll try, cannot guarantee yet.

My exam is coming up soon.

Still,I'm worried for RWS.

Zhen Jun and me.
Dinner After Syf.

Melody and me.

Zhen Jun,Me,Jama Liting,Noel,Me.

Taken with the juniors.

After sentosa trip.

In the bus.

Zhenjun.me.Suhaila.

At Yvonne's place.

Juniors. :D

my team's product.

Something is happening in me.
I don't know what is it yet.
It's a just a feeling,yet it's affecting me so greatly.
and i just don't feel good bout this.
and it's pulling me deeper down.
Every night i'm dying.
I want to shut my brain to sleep but it just refuse to allow me to.
And i'm getting even more sick as each day pass by.
My sickness is accumulating up already.
what more do you want from me.
what will i have tomorrow.
what if im going to have a car accident.
i visualised that just in the noon.
i have no idea why.
you think i really want to?
i'm just so fucking down there now.
nothing to grab me up.
i'm in a very bad shape now.
I don't even want to attend school 'cos i will get so affected.
my grades is so sucky now.

everything's just about me.
o selfcentered me now.
but i'm getting tired and dying already.
I don't want to.

To think that I was the lousiest tpetor in RPband.
I played very very very badly today in band.
I sensed that something's wrong in my embrouchure.
and my tone has worsened.

what the fuck is this going on.
FUCKUDIFUCK!
I DONT KNOW WHY TOO!
i'm going to burst everything into my blog.

i'm going to be better tomorrow yes ;]


so much more than a fuckedup loser.

MINhui and me (;

AOUHHHH i am seriously sick!

I skipped half day of school yesterday and went home to rest after collecting laptop.

I didn't do my RJ,Quiz and Evaluation For 2 days and i got really lousy grades.

I'm aiming for a A or B for everyday's grades now.

caught a terrible terrible cold and my head was so so painful just now.

My team skipped our lunch just now due to time constraint.

min hui's team had MAC for lunch delivered to our class.

When can we have Mac or Pizza delivery for the whole class? :]

My class is like so happening!

So many of us wants to go the Zoo or the Racial Harmony Tour just for the Points? Hahah!

I just realised some of my classmates were from band.

Amin's from CCK band and i remembered having exchange with their band. wakka.

My school is like darn freezing cold.

Even one jacket won't keep you warm for long.

That's why i fell sicked. ah ah ahh. it really kills my mood.

ashairmalimbumb!

Happy B'day Audrey Choo Wan Yi :D

I wanna eat out with Trumpet Section againnnn! :/

Show some respect to your seniors,won't you?

The first day of school. My team was way too cool la, maybe 'cos im part of the team. ;] And we worked very well together. crapped so much,joked so much,know so much more bout each other,and even exchanged hp numbers! But this is the permanent team only for this module. :/ Rushed down to SCH with Jordan. Managed to reach in half an hour's time. So many supporters from FTP,BDN,HSS and Peirce came. After that went for dinner with almost half of the band peeps at Lot1.

If you're reading this,don't be such a fool to keep on crying for this particular person. Cheer up, i'm always here for you :]

Yeah.i'm like so worried now for certain people. But this people do not know how worried i am. I don't want to see them leaving the band, wrong influential of friends, being so negative every time. Before i worried so much,i'm like so soo sooooo nervous for Regent Band, That i started talkin so much rubbish in class, Being hyper-crazy in class, Skipped my breakfast and lunch, Trembling throughout in SCH. And now i'm like.i don't know.

One point I want to bring across.

How can people be so self-centered nowadays??

How old are you all already.

Is that what you have learnt throughout this precious years?

Oh yea, and this is the message you're bringing across to people now?

Only care and bother bout your own life uh.

How bout those around who're so dearly to you?

Wait till you lose them.

See who will have the last say.

You better start deciding and reflecting now.

Yes,in fact humans are naturally selfish beings.I do admit at times i am.But I will still check on myself. Why can't you all be a little bit like that? Seriously disappointed. And what a group called as.I'm at a loss of words. I then realised they're like that after we were friends for how many donkey years. That's why the situation is like that now.What can be done now?

It breaks my heart and hurts me now.

let the pictures do the talking.

spending the early morning 4 hours talkin about band non-stop at yewtee foodcourt.
we didn't even realise the time.
watched movie at my place with liting,huijuan and noel.
we had a fun time man.
we munched on 6 packets of titbits!
then liting and i went panjang area.
she introduced the bubble tea to me.
It's super duper nice!
Better than Sweetalk at Lot1.
then we took a short cut to her house by the ZhengHua Park.
Soooo uuulllluuu la.
she's so scared to take the lift that i have to accompany her up to her doorstep.
then i went to Ang Mo Kio mac meet the nypband peeps and rebecca.
On the way there i was on the phone with liting over the craziest things we ever talk about.
i shall not say what! XD
really had a fun time together supper-ing with the band peeps.
returned home like 230am.
and i slept for like 3 hours before meeting the nyp band peeps to watch the Syf.
i saw some Rpbandies and Philyouth trumpeters there.
Listened for all the morning bands.
i dare not comment so much about the bands.
x]
in general,bands do not play well in Sunrise but more in their choice piece.
only 2 bands played safari.
expected since it's so challenging.

okay,
down with Bedok North Band and Regent Wind Symphony.
ALL the Best!

went for juniors' band.
Today its more exciting 'Cos of the mini game which Becky created. haha!
each group are supposed to come up with 4 4 key signature of any rythems for 4 bars.
all other groups get to try to clap the rythems.
even the alumni had one too!
and ours is more of the off-beats. haha!
yay, huimin changed the Sec1s trumpeters' embrouchures today.
i rushed to Rpband and realised that night combine was cancelled.
wasted my money.
and that money is supposed to last me for a week.
went lot1 dinner with Band peeps.
took a lot of photos with noel and liting! x]
then went home.

so many people smsed me to ask if wanna meet for tomorrow's orientation.
so i'm meeting arini,didot,phylis,elaine and whoever we meet on the way.
745am (;
hopefully end early so i can go for my Trumpet Section Dinner! :]

i'm really wondering what's happening to trumpet section now.
i'm worried for them.
maybe it all still comes back to me.
I didn't groom the Section well before i left.
I didn't do my part as a section leader.
that i didn't achieve much though.
i'm sucha lousy.
no wonder all's having embrouchure problems.
and i'm wondering what's happening to the whole band now.
everyone's getting stressed up.
Yes, stress is a very common and normal feel you get.
challenge: play freely and in a relax way.
If you can't do this, you'll be so tensed up then.
how do you expect to express yourself in the music?Come on people, Syf is just another performance.
Ok let's take it as a performance.
Perform Your Music.
The judgers will grade you.
and that's it.
what's so frightening,scary,afraid to be of?
Yes you'll definitely say "so easy to say than doing!"
Show Your true Self, don't hide any longer.
No matter what,i'm still behind supporting trumpet section.
Do not lose hope in yourselves. :]
Everything is possible as a section!



there's no more fire burning in my heart now.
what can i ask for.
what can i do more.

imagine me without you.

Had company meeting which lasted for 3 hours.
something very new to me which i've learnt.
i had appointment with my client till 1130pm.
that's super late.
by then my mind was totally shut off.
morning call given by different people to wake me up for yesterday's saf exchange.
in general, exchange is where you learn from another band.
i learnt Breathing,Buzzing and Slurs from Benny.
He learnt this breathing method recently too.
happened that he's the one teaching us.
sectionals time is really way too short.
if not i'll learn even more techniques.
headed to regent band.
they had performance in the canteen.
then i went dinner with band peeps.
went to noel's house until quite late.
we talked about so many things.
yayyy we're planning to make a permanent Section Tee!
meet rebecca for supper and we talked about band.
i don't know why do we always mention regent band,
still can't bear to leave uh.
yes, Regent Alumni Band up very soon i believed.
and not forgetting, the Regent Brass Quintet.
and by the time i returned home was 230am.
some of the band peeps went Sentosa just now!
yayy. although there's only 6 of us, its super fun!
'cos im around :]
we built holes,built bday for noel using sand,built bowling alley and played crapping games.
then we went for Skyride together.
we were charged only at $4 per person.
usual price was $9.
i'm so afraid of the height for the first time,
and be'cos we sat in the wrong positions,
it makes me feel even more unsafe and uneasy.
nat bought the pic!
went to Vivo for dinner before heading home.

i want a section outing!
i want a band chalet after syf!

RWS-Band,
Do Your Very Best for Tomorrow's Last Exchange.
Show off What You Have to Show.
Do Not Shy Away.
One Chance.Seize It. :]
Happy Overture :p

this mornin meet arini at 9am!
went for breakfast with colleagues before work.
then slacked whole day at work.
got to know my colleagues even more.
and 3 of them are my age! :D
had lunch at cafe.
had a pay training before leaving at 4pm.
went for RPband with jordan.
went through the repeirtoire.
sightread First Suite in Eb.
anyway i didn't play well today.
i screwed up here and there.
i didn't hit correct notes all the time and i went so airy suddenly.
fukudifuk.
im not even used to the mouthpieces still.
i still prefer my previous mouthpiece and trumpet.
but i borrowed another mouthpiece fr shannon which is nearer to my previous mouthpiece.
1-1/2C. vincentbach.
arghh.
woahlao. i feel even more stressed and tensed up.
and my examination is nearing.
haven't buy the books yet.
ah.

tomorrow company meeting!

i don't know what's happening.
something which cannot be explained.
sighed.
i'm gettin even more afraid and worried.

anyway that saturday night went to surprise suhaila under her block.
sweet 16th!
read her blog for more details. :D

i'm so shagged.
meet arini at new workplace today.
managment trainee!
got to know my team leader and i had some basic training.
it's quite cool lah!
another training tomorrow at 11am-4pm.
and then i'm going for last RPband rehearsal for the exchange.

Things that i want to do for the last 2 weeks before school starts:
1. Work.
2. Teach my juniors to project sound.
3. Regent Trumpetors outing cum bday celebration.
4. Outing with jiaxing,charles,benjamin,bettina.
5. Take more photos with my loved ones!
6. Play pool with bandmates!