you people may think i am weird. indeed yes. i got a weird personality . i dontknow that's justme. i have attitude problems that just wont go away. i get irritated very very easily. and get fed up very easily too. people who irritates me will get from me. i just dontknow why. HAI. why like that?? with so many of this problems propping up, i dont know how long can i stand it. i am way toocrappy.maybe i need to change. woah.i have just so much to say,but i really dontknw how come i cant express it?? what has stopped me ? not even through bloggin. i feel like ,really, cryin out loud to myself.thinkin why why why. yes,i have many friends. just friends whom i will say a hello to brighten their days. friends,not more than that.no true friends, no best friends. i used to have a best friend. a HE. but..what has changed me upsetted me alot. so we broke up our ties. he's still a friend of mine anyway. and my 10years of friend. u may think what. FADS? ever best friends?? this is fake.
hai. i feel so upset and dissappointed with myself. i cant achieve what i want in life. i feel so many problems stucked up in my heart.

tell me what to do.. ;(

i believe in god.

god will be with me,helpin me.

this church inspired me so much.i've finally understand it. :))

What a day! THREE TESTS today. AMATHS test first 2 periods,followed by chinese test 4-5 period, english test 7-8 period. this is how i end my friday in sch x) talkin bout amaths, i didnt do question worth 11marks. the cot cosec..proving question. i suck totally in that. durin contact time sec4Es and 5s were suppose to go to the range for 0level briefing. went to meet mrs fong after sch,cos my section need to buy 4cupmutes. in the end,was scolded by her regardin my band attendance.. !! she really nags alot alot at me. omg. she's just the one and only mrs fong who nags damn much. then i went bedok meet kel. then we went to LIDO watched 49days.after that went home,. did my chinese letter writing hw! ;p did my vocabulary exercise! i even check up the dictionary.how dilligent am i x) read essays and straitstimes justnow! okay..i still have geog ,maths homework. plus revision for other subs.tomorrow band. zz. kay, go watch kungfu hustle now. rent that vcd from felicia.
this girl went to me durin recess.adeline.she's my prisch friend.but now sec2.retained ba.very ah lian-ish =x and she said, jiahui, yr brother dylan right? diaoZZ. all the gangsters got contacts in this area man.so well-known is that brother of mine.zzz. he's damn bad lor,bullied his gf many times cos happened to read his smses frm his darling! xP kor promised to buy me a jacket!

today had EMAths test. ay,no time finished paper. !$##^%@$#!@!##$@$&^$ confirmed plus chop fail. lose so much marks. just plotted the graph,ready to draw curve,then TIME'S UP.so fed up, mr heng dint even give us some minutes. know POA results. 5.5/50. poa lesson is always so bored. in order not to make it bored,ms merduati will start tellin us bout newspaper articles. had chemistry supplementary lesson after sch. not only my class,plus charles ' class. learnt a lot.know what's ions charge now =x aftrthat went to fish's place.then went home sleep. i gona do out a schedule.what subjects to study each day. i am going to organise my time wisely. goin off now.

have not been updatin for long., sec4 life is superb busy. not much time online doing those nonsense chats. today got the time to update 'cos used some of my study time. heh. last fri ,ms jane treated me dinner at SAKAE ;p so nice of her.then i rented a chi dvd, went to fish's place watched at night.ended the show bout 9plus. went to meet kelvin choe and we went for a stroll,my brother maa.. returned home 1130pm. saturday mornin had band then mixed band people went to siying's house for steamboat.10 of us gathered at a round table and wehad KTV session ;p singing from oldies to pop songs. went to work straight after with siying. there was a weddin so we rehearsed walkin in with e cold dish. returned home 12am plus. yesterday worked as bartender, washed 300 odd cups. ~~ so jia lat. tired. today after sch went library read newspapers, then went to meet ms ong for AMaths, but she wasnt there. then i went lot1 bought some stuffs like liquid , from popular. in the end ,i spent like 20 odd. also bought eng asst. bk. tomorrow study arh! got back some results. CHEM scored 10/25. lousy results. but half of my class failed. zz. after we changed to mr heng alot of us like dont wanna concentrate on chem. EMaths scored 13/25. i think my results are like shit. but, thomas was worst than me lor. chem he got 2.5/25 , and EMaths he got 10/25. i was like err. initally he want to break up,,cos of results.and now he's WORSE. i just cant believe. i want to give him a slap man.so so angry with him. he's like, fUCK. i asked him out for lunch, he NEVER reply my msges. fr today onwards, whatever sch related matters he asked, i will not reply him. who knows he didnt even listen in class. i must say, he's not even showin good example. what HEAD PREFECT is he. putting too much time into prefects and yet neglectin studies. zz. i'm really very pissed.

today had POA commontest. out of an hour time given, i slept for 45mins lor. i dontknow how do any qns. most of it left blanks. ms merduati knows yar, what a weakly i am. zzz

so long dint blog.so so busy.had worked on fri night,sat night and this morning. sat morning had the flagday.. collected quite a sum. then went for movie with thomas.watched 'Fun with Dick and Jane' . nice and lame ;p today supposed to be bartended then that guy came later time.. so he took over. so i earned 120bucks in 3days. but i spent like 40 bucks? ohh.. hai.// i have to save man. went LJS for lunch after work with siying. then went home nap. thought i could do my hw in the night. mom brought us out for dinner with aunt. so had the yusheng thingy.. went aunt's place too. played card games. looks like i have to start revising. i have so much to do. siying left my camp proposal,was becky's one.she borrowed it to me. and i 'm like.. no samples for proposal.having a camp in feb.tomorrow confirmin date with ms tan. so damn busy. still unsure if i'm playin for opus. argh...// i love my juniors.very studious. will try to play scales durin combine when sec1s are optional. so proud of them. i will not give up on the 5 of them ;)

now is already like, reachin to 12am. waitin to meet ms koh .. under my blk. gona have a short chat witth her. cos she's leavin tomorrow ;( happy for her ,of kos. we can still keep in contact. she totally rocks my life. oh ya. last night meet her under my blk at bout 1145pm lor. so tired. to get smt fr her.in fact, i need to be the delivery girl in sch man. helpin her to give out the photos to the teachers who came to her weddin that night. ohh.