what a day. didn have p.E cos phua nt ard. as for shakila lesson we played catching with her out of class lol. and eng lessn mr seow talked so much,likes to sabotage ppl. zZz. sci lesson,mrs sim was angry with us cos we didnt greet her. lol! n then durin her lesson i did chi revision. and after school looked for 2 trs,talked to them lor. e 1st tr very gd,gave me a lot of advices and encourages me to study hard for exams cos i didnt do so. i jus cant concentrate. and then ms koh drove me back home but reverse back to yew tee cos meetin frds for study.thnx koh! in e end also didnt study and we went to e cDaC. play and play there. i cant study in e noon. only have to burn midnight oil. sleeping at 3 or 4 am thats all i can say cos i have lots to study. have to study the letter writing format,words meanings,sentence forming .. see. i hope i can fulfill her expectations for me.jus hope so. tmr aftr oral(1pm) we will be goin to lot1 ntUc buy ingredients to bake our own food. am baking choco banana cake. dont really need to buy a lot of ingred. cos got some already. ye. and goin to fishhy's hse bake. i wont ever forget e mid-atumn fest cos is where i first said the Pledge in front of e whole sch perfectly and e class gathering at night. and wed,where i was hurt deeply by mdm fazelah. she didnt give me anymore face. i was very hurt. hai. and that day onwards i didnt even look/talk or greet her. i wont forgive myself.. for causing so much trouble. but did i ever change as what mrs sim said to ms koh in front of me jus now???? become more mature?? haa. i was already that mature. need to study liao.

yosSs! woked up at 10am. my bro already woken up le. and i watched my fav show. and then listened to jay zhou's qi li xiang album every sunday for at least 2-5 times esp qi li xiang & jie kou. and then went to zw's hse de coffee shop packed lunch for me n and bro. after that my bro helped me cut hair!!! HE PROfessional!!! omg!! only cut thin la cos lazy go cut. now behind quite thin but cant really see e difference. hmmm.when my hair long liao, i want go my aunty's hse there e shopping centre cut better and nicer. hmm.. haven do homecon folio cos my reference stuffs in class. cant do art too cos didnt borrow books to draw the trumpet & sax if ever i could for art exam. Enthusiasm, finally know how to spell this word. things that made me happy ?? what are those ?? is there any thiings which ever make me happy?? musical notes ?? that's right. i can draw this. m gonna do shadin cos i'm not gd with poster colors and definitely not goin to a art class next year. this friday is chi paper. so fast. only revised 2 chpts. later goin do revise. tmr wanna watch The Ghost with my bro. see if he wants,if not then dont watch. lazzzyyyy. later mommy goin to weddin dinner. hai. BORED. dont know if daddy goin too. cos is mommy's friend. might take a nap laterrr. i loves napp. Now downloadin ENdless Love 3. dead bored. cant do iqexplorers on my com. dontknow why. mooncake festival coming. dont know how to celebrate. from today onwards,i dont have any names. just call me oie liao. no longer jiahui or daziree.
Listening to : First Love - Utada Hikaru
Next track : Stairways to Heaven (dontknow e song title)

hai. i really loves him a lot but i just dont get it. i never ever seen such a guy so heartbroken after a break-up relationship for so long,maybe few weeks. and whenever i talked to him,he mentioned to me bout her ex. i just dont get it. why why why. he's such a fragile boy who gets hurt easily and a long period. why must this happened. i just dont get it why that girl wanna break off with him. for e first time, i came across such a situation. i felt very very sad & apologetic to him. i dont know why. usually we have chats together..but is like..the longest chat is bout only half an hr or so ??whenever i see him in sch,i dont dare to talk to him. is a feeling..an everlasting one,just for him. and he & his ex have e same cca. i really wish i could join that cca too,smts i wonder if i should but ..i just cant. will lose all my 2 yrs of points. what to do. i just dont get it. we always sms each other and chat on phone but never ever talk to him in sch. jus a simple Hi & a wave. but there's 1 incident which i would never forget,that is havin lunch with him & pig at e Botanic garden,a very memorable 1 indeed even though it poured after few mins & the dinner at Let's Eat. and he's a very humorous,fun,cool,shuai guy. a very caring friend among his pals. my love is true. smts i did ask him out but he wants in gps. so i never had a chance to do so. not even a simple movie.what to do.
actually, i also didnt forget bout ken. hai,i'm just feeling sorry that we have to end this relationship even though it has been goin on for so long. 3 yrs and 1 month plus. thats all i can say. but sorry is e only word to say cos we are in diff sch. there's no way we can meet out everyday. u r busy ,me too right? so just spare a thought for me. know u were angry with me but i dont know bout now. sorry. hai its over. it's passed 1 month plus.

really love this guy so much.. though he also knows bout it. and today i gave him a heart shape clip indirectly.. he's such a joker,nv ever get serious.

i love you ........... why do i phrase it... is this word so hard to say ?? why ????? why i dont understandddd ??

ahh. wad a hazy day. maths test today. guessed what ? i was half-awaked so didnt get to finish qns 2. hai,i was so so sad. only me didnt finish e paper or else i would score better. so damn sad that i cried. maths test means a lot to me. cried o' a test,how stupid it was. but latr was alright,some peeps cheered me up n i dont wanna get so upset o' a lit' test,rite? err,e rest of e sums were ok. sure deduct a lot of marks. HAi. n then homecons test,was so easy cos i'm so clever. and then we have to plan what snacks we are preparin individually. i chosen to bake Chocolate Banana Cake. but i dont know go who's hse to bake cos i dont have those kind of oven. how how. i wanna try out. and i have to make e Folio. aftr sch,we went to talk to mrs lai bout entreprenur stuffs. errr,she's damn funny,start to copy whatever i said. OH GOSH, can be my jiejie liao. lol. n then we compare height but she won me by abit. nvm,i'm still growing and she's so ..observant -.-" lol, so humorous but so sad she's leavin end of dis yr. she's such a wonderful tr. n latr ms koh asked me to act out a skit -.-" arhh, wad man. daziree sounds nicer than jiahui laaa. i went to o.0 for ppl to act,found mr kamar.he's so willing to but in e end e whole thing was cancelled. so sry.n i asked bere to help me pass smt to him. we gt hist then.mr seetho was damn too funny. when stef said he's a joker,he replied u wanna die is it. LOL. whole class was laughin like mad. lesson was fun but he was late for 15mins n he told us he was havin his lunch. n then at 3 we went to cck complex for a swim. there's a slight drizzle but it stopped so swam till 5 plus. got 2 times wave laa. we were playin so many water games n ppl think we're crazy. n then i went hm with fishhyyy,on e way hm bot chocolatesss. guess what.? now dead tired+hungry. mom cooked liao but lazy eat. she went out, y bro zZz, kor @ sentosa. so shiok. 7 more days to Chinese Paper. so damn nervous. muscles all achin by now cos jus now swimming and ytd's badminton games.

i dont mean to, i never thought of.. and why must you view it in a negative side?? what's e matter ?? i dont know. what did i do to you guys. if i really did something evil,bad , jus so sorry and thats it for now. i dont trust anyone anymore .. cos you guys made me lose trust in you yourselves. no one can be trusted for now. i dont believe your every single word. not even a alphabet. nothing of that sort. i dont wish to .. continue all this nonsense anymore. what i suppose i should do is jus study. leave everything aside ..even though i like you so so much. i can jus jump down and die for you. it's my love for you. to show everything. i wished. i'm jus sorry. am i a v bad girl ?? why everyone is against me.. ever since that only moment of incident made me lose trust in 4 friends. and now, in this simple gp. i dont know what have been goin on. they are just .. people who dont concentrate when comes to studyi but only me. what's e most important is just you yourself jiahui. you got to be strong, determine to do what you can. maybe maybe i hope the very day will come when everyone is back to normal. till now, it's not stable enough for me to pass through this little shaky bridge. true friends are those who would go down to save you when everyone is jumping down. who listen to you. your everything. that's what i called as a true friend. i dont have true friends. no , never will i have 1. jus a loner. am i fated to be in this manner?? we are no longer , anymore. iam just a little too stubborn ,foolish. but i must accept this fact.
no matter what, stay strong. you have yourself to continue life with.

urgh! today got so many tests. first 2 periods Eng test. after i completed e paper,i didnt even bother to check but fell aslp too tired. last night chiong for chi,art & sci like mad! n then next 2 periods was chi test. jus compre itself took me 20 mins,so hard to understand but still managed to complete all in an hr. and recess. jus ate a bowl of mashed potatoes. art, do e exam paper lor.i'm doin e theme, 'Zest my life, Jazz up my life'. jus brainstorm on e phrase liao. now i know what Zest means. whha,thnx! you know who yea! am gonna draw a trumpet,saxophone(if possible) and piano keyboard and musical notes thats it. hopefully my shadin tone is gd so i dont nid to paint,color wadever. so jus shadin. i rmb mid-yr i drew kangaroo wif all e car parts n scored 70+!! n next lesson maths. finally,finally got e chance to ans qns!! ms koh always nv call me ans! n got e COP for maths camp. so funi but only ann clapped for me. HAI.n really like tt chpt a lot man!! so damn easy only if got calculator. cos,sin & tan. =) my fav chpt! today we had fun wif ms koh,for e first time she's smiling & laughing too.n sci mrs sim taught new topic but i'm a genius,ans her qns correctly n she keep saying GOOD. ;p hopefully i can pass sci. aftr sch supposed to play badminton but in e end didnt so study wif bere & leen. dey not concentrative enough,only me. hai,so left at 4 went fishy's hse talked to her lor.she told me a lot lot of things which i dont even know in e past and we talked bout sec 2 camp. i miss it so much.. many things have been happening without me knowing. what to do. maths test on fri, sure sure die cos i'm not gd in tt chpt. jus hope everything turns out right tmr.later goin do my art exam paper, study a bit of maths hopefully can go into my brain and do history source based qns. need to build up my expansion,factorisation & quadration again. almost forgotten everything. i am so stupid. i dont suit to be in 2/5 .how i wish, i wish, i wish why everyone turned out to be like that? i wonder ..

why is everyone treating me like that???

after the talkin session with mdm fazelah,it makes me realised how much friends means a lot to me. realised that the moments are precious,important to me. i realised manny things after those talkin sessions with her ALMOST everyday,those lectures. worth. n that day, fish,stef,drey and i cried a lot. n then we talked things out till suddenly laugh. just cant be serious for a moment yea. n then problem is solved all thanks to mdm fazelah.
true friends are those who helped you in many many ways. listen to you. talk to you. ... spend time with you.. i have a very very true friend who shared everything with me. actually is e elderest friend i ever had in my entire life. she shares everything with me ..

wahaa. jus now after school went to limbang immediately to study maths with pearly & pris. supposed to have bere,eileen and xf too. but leen & xf attended maths remedial so bere waited for them. and had lunch there too. guess what ?? in jus a day, i spent $10 plus bucks -.-" arghh , supposed to save $$ man. i want Philosophy bag worr. tmr not gonna spend a single cent of money. need get $$ fr dad to top-up again. zZz. they already had last yr end-of-yr paper to do,so fast. we didnt even have cos we have not completed e chpt pytho..dont know what lai de. then is like,ms chin teaches them maths sot sot 1,jump chpts. lol. so weird. in e end,we ended up laughin in maths. only study a bit ba. n then they wanna go lot1 meet bere but i dont want go le,so lazy. so i continued studyin alone lor, saw unity sec de Ben Pang. he still so shuai lol but i nv fall for him. =p he was studyin with his friends. i rmb how i met him,through Irc & Msn. lol. n then bot Graph paper,FINALLY. always durin maths lesson i have to ask ppl for it. -.- finally bought. i dont know if can use. lol. hmm. so tmr study what neh? Chi ? yea. i planned liao. lol. wahha,faster exams come n then after exams can do what i wished to do. tmr feel like goin swimming.. hai hai how man. so long never go Cck Complex for a swim liao. maybe later ask fish,drey & steff want ma. n after swim, go home eat bathe study. jus reached home but no one at home -.-" later goin bathe, dinner, study. no online later. =) my time is so precious hahha.

wahaa. jus now after school went to limbang immediately to study maths with pearly & pris. supposed to have bere,eileen and xf too. but leen & xf attended maths remedial so bere waited for them. and had lunch there too. guess what ?? in jus a day, i spent $10 plus bucks -.-" arghh , supposed to save $$ man. i want Philosophy bag worr. tmr not gonna spend a single cent of money. need get $$ fr dad to top-up again. zZz. they already had last yr end-of-yr paper to do,so fast. we didnt even have cos we have not completed e chpt pytho..dont know what lai de. then is like,ms chin teaches them maths sot sot 1,jump chpts. lol. so weird. in e end,we ended up laughin in maths. only study a bit ba. n then they wanna go lot1 meet bere but i dont want go le,so lazy. so i continued studyin alone lor, saw unity sec de Ben Pang. he still so shuai lol but i nv fall for him. =p he was studyin with his friends. i rmb how i met him,through Irc & Msn. lol. n then bot Graph paper,FINALLY. always durin maths lesson i have to ask ppl for it. -.- finally bought. i dont know if can use. lol. hmm. so tmr study what neh? Chi ? yea. i planned liao. lol. wahha,faster exams come n then after exams can do what i wished to do. tmr feel like goin swimming.. hai hai how man. so long never go Cck Complex for a swim liao. maybe later ask fish,drey & steff want ma. n after swim, go home eat bathe study. jus reached home but no one at home -.-" later goin bathe, dinner, study. no online later. =) my time is so precious hahha.

yo-! what a day man! slept in class durin chai & seow lesson. tired uh. recess hanged out with leen,xf & bugx bunny.lol. then durin black mama lesson,we bullied her but wasnt me. i'm so guai ;p after sch in dance rm lor,waited for bunny. n then we went to give smt to ms koh. troubled me sia. lol =pPp we chased aftr e bus,so funny was like TOOTS. haa,that describes us best. but hai... i dont know what should i do still. i am still confused+sad. ate at Let's Eat with Bunny,e mee goreng was damn too spicy!! omg,tt bunny bot another drink but was free.lol. so hot that nearly cried. later on went walk ard,wanted to take neoprints but ..too full. lol. we are jus like that. nvm,tmr bunny will bring dig cam take photos for e gp. n then i bot same small file as bunny & leen. Together,we formed e BED. nice?? yeh,all thnx to me. so full nw,reached hm,my kor asked me buy western meals n ate a little lor. then latr need to upload many pics too & also upload blog. arghh,tmr history extra lesson for whole class. n then band prac. and then today cut my fingers again. on jus a finger had 2 cuts and i sprained my last little finger. hai, so poor thing.

i'm so sad everyday. what is happening. i am no longer who i used to be now, not a cheerful lively girl anymore. i just wanna be left alone. i'm really v sorry. the gp vanished becos of me. i am e one to blame. though we are no longer in this gp,but i will really treasure what we went through together before, the many things we did before, those sweet moments when i think back. maybe i was jus too harsh?? but i had already made my choice. no one can change it. that's just me. i didnt want to .. but i had enough of everything. i want to study hard go to a good class and focus on studies, not play and play anymore. that's my aim. i must be able to fufil my wish to be a teacher one day. Sorry is the only word i can say for now, though it dont means a lot. they are just words, that's all. its hurts for you guys and myself too. hope you guys can understand the whole situation. i dont mean to ....
but we are just normal friends from now onwards though everyday i missed you guys but i dont have the courage to tell you ..
Everything is overrrr between this gp.

another thing i wanna say here. i had someone in mind le.. was quite long ago. but he knew le. n then now 2/9 guys and some of my friends know bout it. hai.. i really love him so much, can do anything just for him. i want to tell you,no matter what, stay strong you have me. i can give you everything. love.. intendin to buy him something but i dontknow. whenever i sees him,i try not to look at his face cos i'm really very shy.. i try to look at him from far without him noticing. the way he plays soccer..talk with his friends..laughs.. i dont know why are you so weird today. didnt even talk to me on the phone and never reply me after a reply from you. hai. becos of this, am so sad.. hope you are able to understand me. i really hope .... one day ..
And the reason is Youuu ...

woke up 11am.last nite so tired fr e camp. first thing i did was brush teeth watched my fav show. n then cleaned up my rm,so messy.so many books brought hm. n den dad bot lunch hm,latr went to slp.evening went for dinner with my dad & y bro.kor went Orchard apply new line.mom went for dinner with her pals.went to jurong point,dined at Crystal Jade.so so shiok.lol,my fav la mian!! n then went walk walk ard & then me & bro went arcade played lo,go popular to buy stationary. thats all,am slping

i decided not to quit band. after all those talkings,lectures from my seniors. may have let them down since i so pro in trumpet. lol. jk. if i quit, who gonna play my part? sec 1s still cant cope well neither do i teach them. have not been attendin band parc for thrice, must admit that. hai. i felt v sad. after e chat with joseph on msn,i came to realise a lot of things which i dont in e last time. and on that day i cried. i felt v sad,dont know if i should continue in band or quit. i already have e other cca in mind. but if i quit band, i wont have a chance to perform. i really wanna thanks those ppl who cared for me so much in band. Esp Joseph. Without him, there wont be Jiahui. and of cos, my sect de Cat & Dris. they have been great ppl. The 3 of them taught me, how to count&play. really appreciated those moments we had fun together, cried together durin sectionals cos got lectures fr huisi. she's so fierce,only me and cat are scared of her. and joseph will always be there to talk to us,guide us. though i know that mr tan dont really like me outside of band, so what can i do ? mr lim also.. he saw me usin hp all this in band but nv utter anything in front of me, but behind yes. now i know everything.
am goin to band prac later in e noon. joseph will be there to guide me lor. i really thank him a lot. actually there are so many wonderful ppl who cared for me. smts i really dont understand why. hope i will be able to manage with e pieces for e exchange. and also e camp tmr.
not only band is botherin me. my relationship. though it sunk,but i still like him a lot n i really cannot bear to leave him .. why must i suggest all this things. we have been friends together for 7 yrs. n a secret relationship for 3 yrs. n then now... hai.
n now is my tamagotchi. died 2 times liao. sommore i took a lot of efforts to raise them up, battle. hai. 1 is just dead now. i have no interest. though i know i got to be patient.
smts i feel that the world is just unfair. why must so many things happened on myself alone ? ? i got v gd friends but smts i feel that i dont wanna be in fads. we aint that close. only me not close with e fads. the rest r v close. often meet out too. cos of my cca that is affecting e whole thing. but so wat....

what a world ....

yesterday didnt went for band prac.. i went to e ZOO. lol. saw a lot of new kind of animals. and after e renovation it looks nicer like the Elephants of Asia. hmm. the shows were great too. watched 3 shows in a day haa. enjoyed the sealions' show. they were damn too clever liao. then went for Kfc meal took a train back to e entrance. went with my aunty,cousin and my bro. took 927 back to Cck interchange n shopped at lot 1. saw many regenites like janice,rui xiang,mr joe,mr steven,e MSG .. bot drinks fr Sweetalk what a long queue! n then took 307 back. lol. we got nothing better to go. stop at Yew Tee n then bot another cup. reached home first thing i did was bathe n had dinner. bwhhahaha. slept at 1am plus. was supposed to be on the phone but cant. Zzz.

woohoo. what a great sunday. exactly at 12 called yolanda and jia hui up but cant contact yolanda even till now. zZz. tmr she not goin maths camp die liao. went orchard with family and to Qian Hu fish farm cos there's a exhibition on some kind of fish. very nice la. ticket quite ex, child is $2 , adult $5. n then went Adam Road for dinner.. yeah!! tomorrow is a big day for me. maths camp!! wahha. am lookin forward to it man!! so so fun with ME around. ;p

a bay day for me. firstly cos huimei fr our class won Xbox n den i screamed n ms cheong,vp not happy came to scold me.what can i do? cheer for our classmate cant?i talked back la. zzz. damn fed up. n then later many things happened. mdm faz asked us clear our bks. i got so many bks. angry wif her. Zzz. n durin recess she talked to me. haiz. always kena. if screamed once more n ms cheong saw n then call parents. wad;s e matter?? zzzz too many things happened i dont wan to say anymore.
my last word for you : sorrry. i dont mean it.

teachers day celebration i must say its quite fun. aftr the aces day, we went back to class instead of studyin for maths, we created havoc sia. make up our hair for e performance. omg! steff tied my hair until so many pops out.lol. n then so ugly. errhhghh! n then so much glitter everywhere. n meiling bring e steam hair thingy for wavy lines. and with e music, we rock the whole class. n plus the whiteboard being decorated. hee. we enjoyed alot la. and took some photos too and video clips. and at 930am we went off to the hall. prepare ourselves. durin recess break we didnt eat but rehearse our dance moves. and then came the excited nervous moment. all of us were up on the 2nd level n then ms thila asked us get down to e backstage prepare. when everything was ready, the curtain opened n then so many screams Zzz. it was so loud that we cant hear e music playing n of cos we blamed the MRC and replayed everything. saw some trs laughin cos there's a part which i find quite funny too. lol. the robot thingy. saw ms koh,mdm fazelah,mrs sim,mrs ng. mr seow was on top mah. everything was fine. its just that we keep lookin at each other, just afraid wrong moves. lack of practise i guessed cos kinda rush. n then we wished e trs happy trs day n of cos bowed n say thank you. guess what? ms koh told me can hear all of us esp drey counting so loudly. omg. was it that loud ?? lol!! at least we did our very best with a smile on our face yeh. n faster go on top to watch other performances n i need to change into my pink shorts for e other dance. here comes the prefect dance. but i wasnt that nervous cos experienced before liao. i dont think its nice cos was messy, n diff clothes. must be same then it will look nice. yeh. n then i saw ms koh smiling at me, i smiled back la! lol! she can see me man. lol. so funny. then rushed upstairs. n keep screamin when there's e video presentation. lol. saw those trs who taught us we jus keep yelling. n then we were hungry so mr seow gave us biscuits to eat la. he's so kind. gave a lot. other ppl envious. lol. n then we thanked him for helpin us operate those things. later we meet mdm fazelah n mrs ng at e canteen for the cake. meant to be those trs who taught us but none of them turned up n we have to pull them down. saw ms koh later asked her join but she's with her ex-students enjoyin. got cake too. hai. then we got played with e cake la. lol. mdm fazelah started first lor. dirtied my face sia. lol. nvm we had fun. n took photo with daryl, my bro. n then actually wanna take photo with boon tong but memory card full liao. so didnt lor. next time. n then me n drey took photo with ... MR YEW. he damn paiseh. lol. =) n took photos class girls includin mdm fazelah but cant find our class guys. too bad la. n then changed into hse tee walked pass ms koh we all v dao cos she didnt join us for e cake. n then me drey n steff went to pri sch. went to lot 1 first bot bubble tea n took 188. saw fiona sec 5 de and khooyu there liao n some other sec1s. met lots of my classmates but drey n steff didnt really c a lot lor. met many trs too n shake hands with them. met e 2 DM he still rmb me haha.. but didnt went to yewtee pri sch visit my pri 6 tr. n i forgot to meet him..i told him i would. hai. so sorry dearr. n rushed back to regent sec sia for band practise. reached at 4. faster go in la since mr lim not around. n then go through some pieces like legend from yao. quite nice. i got solo again -.-" n at 5.15 like tt watch video got orchestras all this for 45 mins n felt asleep la. so tired. my hair all got glitter sia. after fall-out saw mrs ng goin home too. so late man. she say our performance nice =) n then was on e phone till 12 am plus. intended to go out e next day which means today with FAJS n ms teo cos we all missed her but lazy arhh sleep.

yoo hoo! today's a boring day. woke up ard 11am . then cleaned my room a bit only n then lunch n then cousin came to my house have to accompany her watch Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. no choice but quite nice. n then watch Lady n the Tramp. lol n use e comp lor.. n then teach her chi spelling.. lol. bo liao arhh. i can open a tution centre liao. recently got to know a song by JJ -Jiang Nan. very nice. got to know when khoo yu sang this durin trs day. ;p

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all the teachers a Happy Teachers Day!! i may be a bad student at times but can b very fun wor!