liars, cheating me, threatening me,bullying me. time and again. and again.
you dont even gain my trust at all now.
i believe in no one now.

sometimes we just need people to listen to us.
we have what everyone have.
i just feel like giving up everything now. i am a hopeless freak now.
bang me down.

move on,move on, wont i ?

sometimes, we got to thankful for what we have. that we're able to wake up the next day.

we are blessed. are we.

how should i start.
to speak to me, to tell me, to comfort me, to ease my pain, to hear me out, to cry to You.
tell me who should i choose.
i have enough of this.
why are both of you still quarrelling over nonsensical issues.
a total waste of time.
just get on with life can?
i fear one day, i have no where to go.
my path leads to nowhere.
i cant foresee my future, yes You can.
yes,i know its tough to forget these.
what is past has already happened.
there's no turning back.
how i wish one day ,you can just wake up ,come to know of the Good News.
why be so stubborn?
i dont wish to hear all these already.
dont you think it had hurt you so much already?
i am wounded inside too.

i realised, i really do enjoy studying now. and i studied 10hours this week. praise God!He really motivates me to strive harder and even give me that discipline to study 3hours(althoughsometimes i did not study for 3hrs) per day. thank You Lord for Your kind guildance.

i learnt in discipleship something which is very important- to obey my leaders. 'cos we dont want togive their work a burden but we want to give them this joy (; oo well,im so sweet right. :P

God has been continously answering my prayers, guilding me, teaching me, and of cos with me always ;]He is really the beautiful,wonderful,splendid,amazing,awesome God that everyone would want to know. although at times i felt really down, when every other things seem to be falling apart, i know He has beenwith me from the very beginning and consoling me. He has never left me,not even once. recently many things happened, i did not question whys , but i know He has His good reasons for all these.after all, i should even continue to press on, hold on 'cos He has never ever give up on us. and after theseproblems happened, good things start to be on the path. just like yesterday, i asked my mom whether i could attend church today.she did not immediately say a no,like how she objected last time. instead, she asked me why. thank God! she did allow me to attend. i want to continue to fast and pray this week too, for myself and cellgroup to continue to grow and more peoplewill join us. He has answered my prayers (:
i am not gona give up 'cos i am in the middle of the race,i gona complete the race for Him.

Prayers are really very super powerful weapons that we have. as christians,we must Pray everyday! having really serious quiet time this week has really changed me.i felt something which i did not feel before.this is a great feeling. quiet time has become part and parcel of my life now.

yes,im retakin my chinese0level paper. like what peng and ade said, maybe it wasnt the right method i applied to my studies. i should not just give up like that, but i ll continue to work extra hard for the retake.i will be more dilligent for You Lord. i study not for anyone,but You and where my future lies. ade shared with me this verse which i would also like to share with the people out there, "You keep track of all my sorrows, You have collected all my tears in Your bottle,You have recorded each one in Your book" Psalms 56:8" no matter what the results may be, we must be grateful for it is God who gives ;]

thankyou peng for your prayers that night. it really makes me better and encouraged.
it is not by chance that i got this support of cellgroup, of this sisters and brothers, but it is by His plan.

i learnt in today's sermon. Romans 12:2 "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world,but be transformed by the renewing of your mind,so that you will be able to test and approve what God's will is,His good,pleasin and perfect will." we need not be fashionable by wearin clothings which expose.this people do nothave a sense of secure in them,thats why they are dressed like this,and they do not even think before they dress.we think of the way before we dress and we need not expose to be fashionable too. ps daniel mentioned Sg has the worst fashion trend!boooooohooo. by the way,it was a survey tested,not by his opinion.

back to what i did today, i woke up at 8am and cycled to cck for band basketball. o well,by the time i reachedthat place,my legs went weak cos its so far and there's no short cut route there. im glad to see many bandmates there, even the alumnus too. went off at 10am. cooked instant noodles,went to meet siying.newcomers! x] andall 3 of them accepted Christ! wow,that's the most wonderful part-receiving salvation! although my friendswere unable to come, i am not just going to sit there and give up easily. i will continue to keep this peoplein prayers and invitation to church.
praise the God! my cousins are comin tomorr for biblestudy. and amazingly,i did not feel lethargic in church today although i was tired. x] wonderful God!

study even harder,(clock up more hours)
pray like never before,
share to even more friends.

busy.

studies.

*sighs*

why ??

siying.dororrin.yanxiong.me.stephanie
singaporeeeee!!
me and penggg
steph and meee
do i ? hahaa
of kos she does.. peng's shirt
ade's shirt
BIG steph 's shirt

spendin my national day in church to pray and fast for the nation.yes that's what we did. and i love it.
pray.praise.worship.fast
but i didnt catch the fireworks.o nevermind bout that.
im thankful to see many people have been saved by God. although this sisters of mine faced persecutions,they stand even firmer for God. this people have encouraged me a lot in a way or another.
i thank God for this wonderful people around me!
praise the Lord that minfang and stephanie were able to attend church!
i have not been studying really hard..thats why i dont see the results.
i'm gettin so lazzyyy. o people ,encourage me to study okay! :D
until now i have not decided what courses should i take. i have something in mind, but ..errr.h.

miss sherlyn,you're a very nice teacher i've known.
i pray that you will even get closer to Him each day.


Meet ms koh at west mall for lunch and chat with her..then i went to watch My Super Ex-Girlfriend with. . you might be very surprised by this person. haha. cheryl,rebecca's sis.
and i think we were mad la. we sat right in the middle.
ooo . chinese olevel results.
terrible horrible.

this week passed fast, and i studied 8hours only.

im going to study even more hours for this comin week (:

sorry to my dearest readers,for i have not been updating.

i will update my blog max thrice a week so do look out for new posts!

im glad i brought new people to church yesterday - stephanie toh.

yanxiong came too.

learnt bout LOVE and SERVE.

and it all goes back to Purpose Driven Life book.

o well.need to start readin the book again.

thanks peng x]

biblestudy today, bout Islam.

then we went to patataya stall to eat.

patataya is a name which stef called.

then went to lot1.

we bought plain colorful shirts at Giordano so that we can wear on national day :D

GOD LOVES VARIETY!

and im so nice to buy for my discipler the same as mine. WHITE :P

oh no.this week only schoolin on mon and fri. the rest are no-school days.

means i got to study even harder.

any prayer requests,do let me know [ ;

i just counted. i got 11 toblerones of whites and blacks given by people!

im made by God and for Him.

for He is with me all this while.

this week passed fast, and i studied 8hours only.

im going to study even more hours for this comin week (:

sorry to my dearest readers,for i have not been updating.

i will update my blog max thrice a week so do look out for new posts!

im glad i brought new people to church yesterday - stephanie toh.

yanxiong came too.

learnt bout LOVE and SERVE.

and it all goes back to Purpose Driven Life book.

o well.need to start readin the book again.

thanks peng x]

biblestudy today, bout Islam.

then we went to patataya stall to eat.

patataya is a name which stef called.

then went to lot1.

we bought plain colorful shirts at Giordano so that we can wear on national day :D

GOD LOVES VARIETY!

and im so nice to buy for my discipler the same as mine. WHITE :P

oh no.this week only schoolin on mon and fri. the rest are no-school days.

means i got to study even harder.

any prayer requests,do let me know [ ;

i just counted. i got 11 toblerones of whites and blacks given by people!

im made by God and for Him.

OPUS III ticket. proudly done by mr hector tan!
shaoming and meee x]

stephanieee toh and dazz, were in the bus back to sch.
in the woodwinds bus! high spirits!
practising how to stand up and hol instruments in the right way..
ya qing showing peace while prac her piccolo.
backstage of vch. so cool uhh. 2 levels!
pressies and chocolates i rec. thanks people. i donknow why u guys love me soo much!
belated bday card fr mandy sisss x]
zhenjun and me! wahahha
the band in fall-in position outside vch.
my trumpet seniorss and me!
yubing and me. i<3 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6164/466/1600/DSC05215.jpg"> brother and his gf who came!
thanks joanna,for e toblerone!!
clarinet section bigg family
RWS
emcees in action!
double reeds xP
my tpet section. how adorable are they!
saxophonists!
rehearsal
flute section

warming up

Opus III (trip & rehearsals)

hey bandmates,take a look at the photos. mm x]