whole weekend wasnt home.

fri noon went band. took cab to sch for band., waste of my money -.-had sectionals w tutor.

then last 2 hours was sectional again. was tired alr.

ms koh fetched me to west mall,. dined w her at SakAe sushi.

she's just one of te best teacher i ever had (;

shopped around. bot lotsa titbits for chalet.

left west mall like 10pm alr.

in e mrt met fitri fr bDn. so so coincidence.

chatted w him till he alights at Eunos.

i reached pasir ris at 1115pm, asked ard how to get to downtown.

took cab to aloha loyang.chalet was a lit' bored.

had funs mixing w sec2s .-.i felt so young ! lol

played card games w alumni.playstation.

that's all i did.

slept at 4am.,after some chatting w e sec2s.

slept with yvonne initially,then 4am she woke up and went out.

e room, i was only e 1 occupying.l o l.

slept till 7am.stupid jude n gang came in to sleep.

woke me up. left at 9plus.

meet bandmates. 15 of them.went sentosa.

suntan awhile only. mengyi and i took tram rides. here n there. went musical fountain check out da place first. saw mr lim. lol. we were lost lor. went back looked for e rest bout 4 plus.

bathed, met bdn alumnis.

went musical fountain in e evening. so crowded. i love their blue ridge saga still.and latin gold.we watched musical fountain then. so so childish. then played hide n seek at sentosa. lol.

took 188back together.returned bout 10plus. stupid zeting -.-"

sok wen fetched me at mrt. stayover at her hse. watched full house. had supper.

we slept at 1am cos too tired.

woke up 10am.

bout 12 went dimsum w her family.

then her 6yr old bro,me and her went played 4 rounds of pool. lol.

then movie, drink drank drunk. took neoprints.

went back her house then. returned home at 8 plus.

so tired..//

todays lesson was slack.

geog test got 11/15 ;p

went west mall w sokwen.

had nap.

listenin to centuria. brings back wonderful memories.
yesterday some of us went becky's house till night falls.
!@#$%&%!$@&!$! so agitated.

lotsa tests are finally over.

today got back social studies. on SBQ. i got 8/12. consider not bad for me laa.lol.

it all takes memory to memorise so many history stuffs.

had fun for p.e -frisbee.

so tired in class. had AMaths test.

gona fail , didnt do tat 13marks qns on coordinate geometry.

hehe,, didnt know my mom also loves stairways to heaven.

just now went sokwen's condo awhile.

met sufei and some juniors.

slept for like 2hours onlyy.

had dinner.

need to practise my trumpet soon.

buAi;.

no me ames

walkaton//
eric.jiayao.zhuofeng.fesh.dejin.thomas.fadz.me.
saturday went yuting's house for meeting . till 5pm.

feng n eric came to look for me.

went cycling then.

we went to panjang lake. i squat by e lake. then feng scared me off.

whoA// i damn pissed w him.

he kept on irritating me but he still managed to make us laugh by his crappie jokes.

then eric lobang him. lol. he cycled up e slope damn slow . even though its 105kg.

went feng's hse.

his dog loves me kayy. ;p

went back by LRT.

wanted to stay awake e whole night to watch my korean vcds, FULL HOUSE.

felt asleep by e 4th vcd,, at 2am plus.

dad n bro kept on askin me to go sleep.

slept till 5am plus.

feng and eric gave me morning calls . lol.,

eric waited for me at my house.

we walked to yewtee,took train to meet e rest bout 6am.

omg, damn early.

i was so tired. ;/

had walkaton at bishan CC.

err. alright. bout 3 or 4 km.

jiayao's parents fetched all of us back.

was so early,bout 10am lor.

e rest went back except for thomas,me,feng and fadz.

went to Limbang for breakfast.

then played Counterstrike.

weird right. lol.

zf treated all of us.

then played pool.

stil a newbie though.

but get e hang of it le.

again zf treated us.

played till noon,

thomas and i went Lot1 to see what shows can we watch.

watched The Maid.

middle part was sleepin. lol.

watched e head and a tail.

went home and slept till 9pm.

had dinner.

slept at 11pm.

still tired.

i'm so lazyzzyy!!

wanted to go bugis w stephanie to buy bikini.

but tmr got sec3 band i guessed.

yeah.

goin sentosa this sat.

woo hoo-

okkay.well- i'm so delighted ;)

anyway,yesterday had band. err. slack slack. te word to describe e sec3s.

no selfdiscipline.

had couple-game too. ;p by me.

combined for an hour. on star wars saga. coro.. and cant rmb 1 more piece.

i love coro. its an orchestra piece.

star wars. omg. e notes are damn high but wil try.

juPiter is nice !

had dinner w becky at yewtee till 8plus.

watched FULL HOUSE ;p only finished 2nd cd,. yeah.and very nice.

but stairways to heaven is nicer.

i love korea shows!!

today. mornin watched full house.

meet up w excos.

went to yuting's house near panjang for meeting fr 1pm onwards

till 5 ??

yeahh..

zf n eric came to find me.

zf fetched me. we went to panjang lake.

they lied to me that they seen a whale before -.-

and i actually believed them,!! omg.-.

cos is damn huge there.

so angry w feng,, he pushed me down ,nearly fell but he pulled me.

then eric lobang me. we went feng's house.

watched a show.lol. which feng n zhucheng in e show. both so buay ba de,.

eric fetched me to lrt station.

took train back home.

returned at 8pm.

jus had dinnar.

gona watch full house soonn.

think not sleepin tonight ba.

wil watch till tmr 5am. lol. but i think i wil sleep at 2 or 3 de lor .lol

tmr am going walkaton!

gosh,
2 commontest papers were over.
e maths and combined sci today.
err. i'm so freakin pissed w ms lai.
she said go thru e quiz first.
in e midst,she attended to jolene.
so we chatted lor.
and then,, guessed whadd? she scolded e WHOLE class for not respecting her when she's teaching.
i was like.. !@##$%^^%#%^^@#$
and then she scolded KEF for talkin.
zz.
and ytd scolded drey n jan.
not ONLY them ,, - there were other ppl.
she just loves pickin on us.
i just dont understand whyy,
last half an hr was QandA
i was waiting for her to attend to me. for e half an hr.
but she kept on sayin wait wait.
and so end of lesson, i came forward asked her.
she was like,, sorry i need to go for my lessons.
before me, she attended to xinfu.
i was damn pissed.
i walked away
if ever i was smart, i wouldnt hav ask a tr.
and okkayy, i did my part- i asked my friends that particular qns. none was able to explain.

fuck.
i was damn angry.
kayy, i hate to swear.
if only, i am really v pissed.
and end of commontest , she didnt allow me to go , cos she said i haven pay up 10yr series 7 bucks.
i was like. huh. as clear as i can rmb, i PAID all bks except CHEM.
so i went off fr back door.
i'm so pissed.
hai

tmr social studies commontest.
well, was last-min.
had fun w pe today. frisbee w classmates mixed
kept on screaming- and roaring ;p


stairways to heaven rocks!!

okkayy, well- my mood swings fast/ ;p
i'm so glad.happy ;p

i just did it! i studied emaths yesterday.

went to mengyi's condo at 11am. and for exactly an hr, i concentrated on studies.

i'm so glad that i did.

there wasnt any jokes to crack. ;p

went lot1 to pack lunch w mengyi.

she went up for lunch. and i dined with hongming.

o gosh,, we didnt talk. lol.

then mengyi came down.

relax abit then.. sokwen n his bf came later on. then thomas came.

err,, okayy, we took lotsa photos ;p

thats e best part.

went lot1 later on to buy chinese B books.

bot so late-

went to sokwen's hse.

i'm always welcomed by ppl ;p

bwahaha!

her grandma really loves me.

and her mom too ;)

and her bro. o gosh, everytime see me wants piggy back and tickle him.

he's only like K2 and soso so cute!!

left bout 7pm.

whole night had been watching teevee.

i also dontknow why,;

and i dont watch tv.

its just so weird of me .

ate cheese spagetti .

and then chatted w sokwen o' e phone for an hr.

till 1230am.

watched teevee,

went to sleep,.

its a great sunday.

wanted to go church w friends but too lazy.

revising again later on.

emaths,, and combined science.

o gosh, i cant wait for chalet in 2 weeks time!!!

national day// red and white! o gosh, i looked so cutee 

my section//trumpets rocks!! 

real trumpet 

trumpet model// ;p  

my cabinEt//i just love all e stuff toys 

my black little nail done by mengyi 

our study table/ lols/lotsa junk food 

yeah//you ..  

cheeSsee  

MICKey and sokwEn 

me// on e rooftop. cute ba 

3 of us//  

honGminG n mEngyi 

meNgyi anD i  

listening to stairways to heaven,that korea drama series., e song is so sad.

i wonder, what the hell was i born and bring into this world?

i hated so many things,

i hated my life, especially.

i hated the way i'm livin right now.

it just dont rock, as in sucks. awww.

but i just cant do anything.

a sense of terror and darkness right in my eye.

i'm feeling painful, real pain.

just some kind of feelings.

i'm utterly dissappointed today.

with my trumpet section.

am i that demanding??

i'm really not up to te expectation of being a section leader.

why cant they just,, memorise e scales, play loud, still so shy bout playing out,

dont ask qns, practise their etudes.??

and what in e world are they given their own cornet (for te whole yr in this sec life) ,

their own tone&technique, symphonic books for?

arent they wasting their own precious time and money ??

i'm just so curious to know why dont they practise?

they might as well, just join librarian , arrange e books and stuffs like that.

isnt that much simpler?

my juniors still are not coping well.

they cant play scales well other than Cmajor.

so dissappointed.,

this is not te first time.,

its been e dont know what times.

i'm been really patient.

i think its time to set some punishments so that they will do their work.

its just te same as sch work.

listen to tr, do yr work and hand up to tr.

hai_

nothing can express how i am feeling right now.

as a senior,

i should really talk to them more.

talked to them like. umpteen times.

many things just happened.

but i'm really glad, that i did my AMaths hw which is supposed to hand up next mon and clarify my doubts w ms jane ong.

i'm awake finally,,

wasting my 8months as sec3.

to now study hard.

commontest is just next week,

i gona score well.

;)

i have faith in myself!!

yesterday dont intend to go out but to stay at home to revise.

but,, ard 2plus, classmates asked me go watch fireworks.

was so lazyy to go out.

went meet them,,

guessed whadd?

i was wearing red tee w white bottom. cool rite.?? sg's bday man.

so crowded at jurong east.

took rides in e tankers. whahaha!!

and wanted to try out for bungee jump but so long queue.

really v crowded.

there was a big screen, screening national day parade.

dined at my fav jap fastfood. ;p

then kept on screaming.

saw fireworks. first time. i was amazed. ;p

so beautiful.

if only i watched with him..

we waited by e roadside for an hour plus, just for e tankers.

omg, it was totally cool.

got to see different tankers..

and can hear them shooting their guns but no bullets lar.

very loud.

lol.

we passed by IMM, bot some snaacks to eat in 188 Bus.

went home myself, returned at 1130pm,,

was very late.

and scary,, cos of e festival-

slept early,12plus.

today went Bugis with mom.

err. was alright.

didnt get to buy anything.

ate takopachi for dinner.

not hungry.

i hate takopachi.

it sucks.

tmr havin physics test.-.

lau pa sat performance was overr.

10 pieces at one shot, believe it or not.

lips was tired,, nevertheless still tried my best.

but didnt hit e highnotes for merry widow, e Presto part.

i was angry w myself initially.

hai_ i'm dissappointed with myself for pieces like Highlights and Starlight.

blue ridge saga solo was alright,i guessed.

there was an encore piece, which i was alr super tired.

made in sg, e top As are killing me, and 1 per part. ;/

end of concert, received sweets n chocos from bdn bandmates..

took photos.

met mr heng,he was so supportive that hecame. i was shocked.

bot a drink only, had e 2bucks coupon.

in e bus, havoc. brasses rock!!

hate dat teacher. zz.

had supper w becky,zeting,charles,jun,minfang,dor,yvon,yoklian,aileen,amy and some sec4s.

only bot mushroom soup at 7-11.

mom came to fetch me,

returned hm 1230am.

tired_

sunday mornin went church w fesh,drey. met steff n her sis bro.

trying to get used to it ba.

then we went west mall,

janice was waiting for us ther.

we bot packed Burger King meals.

and went to her condo,The Jade which was just besides mrtstation.

and fr her rm , we kept on shoutin at e ppl at e station. lol. we r maddies.

she got so many games lor, and we worked on our cmeproject.

after tt, steff n dreyy left.

we went to play tennis.

we r craazy, lol. fesh shot e ball to e outside of e condo. omg.

then went swimming ..

took photos too.

left at 5plus.

returned home.

ard 9pm,went dinner w mom n dad at Adam road food centre.

love the sting rays there ;p

returned hm at 1030pm le.

omg, our school national day was so boring-

orbiang,,

had my t signed by alot of ppl- lol.

went town w bandmates. at 1plus.

was bored,

took photos,,

then went borders c music bks.

so cool,

and listen to some bandmusics..

went to SJI parade.

was cool. it seems like NDP.,

left there at 6plus to meet someone at town .

meet e rest back ,, took 190 bus.

went lot1 for dinner, Food Culture.

had korean meal!!!

went to meet my mom n bro then, shopped ard lot1 but shops closed alr.

took cab back home, feelin super tired. slept at 12plus.

___

what a great tuess. had good sleep but not enough. wahaha

dad woke me up, supposed to go cousin's hse. but didnt go.

stayed at hm watched some cartoons. ;p

wentto meet mom forlunch,,

and now here,online.

no one home exceptme n mom.

goin watch fireworks w friends later ;p

wad tiring sch days..

weekdays seldom online now.

so dont get to blog often.

so sorrie ppl.

am playin game w feng online now-

been busy, with band. and studies.

had lotsa tests.

today had chi test, ytd had poa test, 2 days ago had phy quiz..

had studyin hard.,, trying to.

3 days ago, wed.

aftr assembly went hm took my certs.

then went back sch for extra lessons.

at 430pm left w thomas to Lavender.

need to make my Ic and he accompanied me.

he's so nice, ;p thats why he;s my best bud.

reached there bout 450pm and they closed like at 5pm.

e lady was so nice to let me take my photo and make Ic.

e photo suks. argh-

then ate at beach road, chatted w thomas, regardin many of band stuffs ;p

which he also enjoyed larr.

then shopped ard.

took bus back to BukitBatok.

which was a 3 hrs ride back. omg.

reached bukitbatok at like, 9 pm.

shopped at west mall. lol_

then he pei me home lor. so tired. , just to make a Ic.

yesterday supposed to hav oral.

and then guys start first.

and girls waited lor.

omg, waited for 3 hrs.

and that 3 hrs, was fun.fun.fun.

mengyi and i were havoc in e class.

we were like, playing.

running in e class playin catching ;/

played twister.

played some handgames.

even played horse ridin games..

omg.

you wont believe it .

and we took e front of e class to be e stage,so she was like singin and dancin plus her crazy hairstyle.

waited fr 230pm to 500pm,

and then mr zahed came in and said bandmembers need to go for prac.

so mengyi and i went for band while phylis took oral.

returned home bout 8pm, just like today.

cooked maggie mee for myself just nw.

havent iron my band uniform for tmr's concert.

performance @

LAU PA SAT

7pm- 8pm

;)

go support!!

am practising v hard man. for e 10pieces.

gosh, i will run out of air .

and how am i gona survive for Made In Sg w e top A. -.-

and each per part.

sleeping soon, aftr polishin boots, iron uniform.

so tired.

the day i fall in love ..

omg, that song is soo nice.

yvom tan sent me.

monday blues.

chem was alright, it's always interestin w ms chong.

eng, we played stewpid games to compete against diff gps.

guessed whad's my gp called?

SILVER KNIFE!! ;p that's a korea show.its damn.. omg, its M18 anyway and i watched it 4 times.

then EMAths lesson, omg

i gona send to DC. tried to finish up my hws. left w 2 assignments not complete.

recess_ had to do duty.

had poa, fell asleep.

ms merduati said if we have sweets,she give us permission to eat.

luckily i did brim cos i knew i gona sleep. ;)

geog test.

was not easy.

PSE. just talkin session bout marriage.

helped fads' club to wash tr's cars and got paid.

today we washed Ms Merduati,Mr Thomas Tan, Mr Chow, Mdm Soh s' cars.

tmr they have out 7 more cars. but havin band tmr.

today mdm zhao came to class look for me.

i was munchin on baked corns. ;p

she said, eatin arh?

i smiled at her SWEETLY lol!!

she told me bout me n siying representing e band for some discussions w other cca regardin dontknow what competition.

its held tmr, fr 2-330pm.

i was so shocked -.-

its gona be boring. and i gona miss out e warmup sessions_

5 more days to performance!!

i'm SAD

just sad, purely sad-

over whadd??

many many things.

relationship,

studies.

i dont want to get into another relationship again

i'm trying not to.

i dont want to be hurt, or hurt another person.

but.

these feelings came back for youu,,

there must a reason for it.

i'm falling deep for you again.

its a different feeling.

i'm just standin at te side,

filled with envious//pain//sorrow//jealousy.

i know , i know.

i dont look sad fr te outside.

i'm happy, i'm cheerful.

that's just daz-

you're not mine,

never.

and its hard that you know its yr heart you cant trust,

there's a reason why people dont stay where they are.

baby, love just aint enough