Thursday, March 30, 2006

prefect investiture was held today.
and the music was centuria. so paiseh,i was strolling in la due to the big court shoes i was wearing. and then i walked up,shook hands with e principal,so many people were screaming for me. yar la,i'm so important. she told me,"you got so many supporters."
we took prefectorial board 06 and sec4s photos. we were crazy la,throwing up the blazers and mr chen was throwing the ferrero chocs for us. and then sec3s presented their gifts for each exco. i was so touched. gaven and kenneth presented to me. 2 boxes of chocolates filled with hearts pasted on it,. and it was melted choco of different shapes. gaven said to me, "feel like crying." and he really burst out. i was shocked. i consoled and hugged him. then lini got a big milkbottle filled with water,containin testubes with messages in it. thomas got a hand-made calender 07 with photos pasted in it,and he was so touched that.he really cried out. followed on so so many people. its a sad moment for all but precious =) i love and be missed by all of them. i was rather strong la,trying to hold back all my tears. almost all sec3s hugged me, cos all sure miss the cute daziree yeah. heh.fanny said to me,"must eat the chocos k,i did the most." very touched by their great efforts. although i wasnt really commited into prefectorial board,but it somehow rather gave me a good feeling. anyway ,gona have part 2 cryin session durin the chalet which is tomorrow! we prepared a gift for the sec3s too!
had band practise today. i realised so many things.the current sec2 batch is much better than the sec3 batch.just look at the sec3 batch.,everything not up to the standard.they need people to push them. someday i really wish they will grow up.they are not very bonded even after howmanycamps and their outings. sec2 batch is really,well,even though they are playful,but they work well like, if they go band early,they will say,eh we arrange the chairs or smt like that.although its a small thing, but alot of effort and iniative. what mr lim said today was right. being a leader in band is completely different from any other ccas. sec 4s shouldnt be mentioned now, instead sec4s should be scolding their juniors for silly mistakes made in music or outside music. and they themselves should already be musically strong. if not, 4 years in band what do they learnt?? simply their own efforts and not forgettin the teachers' effort gone down in the drain. mr lim had been tryin to groom the band for 4 years, yet nothing was gain. it still remained at this lousy poor standard. sometimes i really feel upset bout it. but i got this mentality,not only me but all the sec4s i guessed so, that, why should we care so much? we're steppin down in a month's time. a bo-chap attitude. i must admit i got this kinda attitude. yeah. i feel, that sec4s should still cherish the last few moments with the main band and also with their own section, and instead continously encourage and finding ways to improve their music or drills. yeap.
i feel for that my section. talk bout each of them.
rena-- her character is like me. but her music is weak. she can pitch high notes,but dont want play out,scared this or that.rythem got probs -.= thats why today quite angry with her la. rythems wrong here and there. in the end, no support for festivo. trumpets played so lousy today. she needs to build up her rythem.
eliana-- dare to play out.not bad. got faith in her. rythem still alright.
zhiting-- shy to play loudly. she dontknow anything,never ask me,only ask the rest of the seniors.cos they find me fierce!
nat-- no comments.got faith in her =)
i hope they continue to do their best la. as for the sec1s, got hopes in every single of them =p
its very hard for me to encourage and praise them. feel so awkward cos i always scold them.
so mean of me. heh. they understand me , i guess.
so i hope that,whichever band sec4mates readin this post,will continue to encourage their sections, hav the never-give-up spirit ks!
sec3s, continue to perserve on and you will be successful(if you're readin)
sec2s, dont be too complacent la, but strive for the very best!(if you're reading)
cant wait for combine service at church on comin sat. which is 2 more days!
super duper cool!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

feeling down ;(
what a .day.
why why why//

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

heard that yesterday 18 teachers didnt turn up for sch! its a huge number..
still stuck at whatever bionomial AMaths,-
today had assembly talk by the 77th street owner,ms chew.
heard her talk for the second time and i love her talks!
its very encouragin and motivating. learnt to seize and identify opportunaties.
went to meet my friend, and then went home around 4 plus.
today some groups presented their product to sell either on Sports Day or Friendship day.
some products are like, fried mars bar+isotonic drink, clothes, icecream,milkshakes,phototakin services,chocolate apples and so on.
how innovative of these people in my class.
i just cant wait to have our own little stall in school for international friendship day !
got confidence will attract the crowds as long as daz is around. x)
4 more weeks to midyear examinations.

Monday, March 27, 2006

i dontknow what should i post.
but i'm delighted and grateful for the people who had done so much for me!
i'm thankful to be part of Godchasers and a part of YI .
because i really learnt a lot. the first day when i stepped into church.
and the people have been helping me so so much that i'm really at a loss of words.
nice friendly caring people x)
2 most important people who have been continously guiding me all along,
adelene and laypeng .
in fact,everyone are important to me.
without them,there wont be daziree.
without God,there wont be daziree.
i just want to say,
although i dont show it out,
daz L O V E S you all!
forever believing in Him.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

i was late for band- cos i slept at 3am last night.
couldnt wake up.maybe my dreams was too nice already.haha.
received a call so i hurriedly rushed to sch. of cos i did bathe! x)
reached at 830am.super late for band. had combine in the early morn.
went through black magic women and warabe uta fantasy.
had sectionals with benny! he taught us how to play jazz.
and he showed us a E flat trumpet.
he says he will try to bring a flugelhorn to show us.
loves flugel and piccolo trumpet.
learnt smt meaningful in church today.
in fact,i always learn and grow.
i learnt that even when there's low times, i still have to fully trust Him cos i know He will be there no matter what.
i learnt to take everything step by step,
than to give up so easily when you take so much steps at a time.
and i remember the first day when i accepted Christ,
i'm so interested in knowing Him so much,
i hunger for Him so much,
i was just so in love with Him.
and i will still loves Him wholeheartedly xP
i love my cellgroup brothers and sisters!
God, i promised i will be faithful to you !
i'm startin to cherish things around me .
even my mom.
i'm startin to realise that she did really that to care and love so much for us but i never did appreciate all that she has done for this family, and for us especially.
and she only has one expectation for us.to study hard.
i returned home at 10 plus just now.
what happened was.she cooked our fav spagetti.and bought a bottle of coke for us.
i was touched. and that dinner was more like supper.
although i dont talk to her much. ican see she's always very depressed,
no one to talk to. what matters most to her is this family.
but. no more hope.
i've always been so selfish.
all i want to do when i;m home is stayin in my room and
do my stuffs or using the comp in the study room.
i never ever accompany my mom like watchin tv in e living room.
its just like a normal routine.
hai.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

first 2 periods had AMaths test. on simple identities and circles.
actually dont really know how to do.
PE lesson was great. ms ng is becoming more friendly.frisbee. measurin height and weight.
i didnt grow ;(
162cm, 48kg.
mrs phua was scolding us durin eng lessons cos we didnt take initiative.
ate a lot durin recess. dont know why. just love eating the canteen food. esp the titbits!
durin cme lesson,
ms ong was askin How do You Motivate Yourself?
each of us are supposed to come up with a quote.
i came up with one,
which i learnt durin service:
put in your very best effort for everything you do, even if its the slightest thing.
actually its not really motivation.
its some kind of.
u know, continue to perserve on even if there's downs.
had Physics test.
was easy 'cos i studied. and ms lai even revised with us before the test.
went home with Sky! and yvonne,phylis.
invited him to church.
yvonne was sayin,if Sky's going, Amy and her will go too ;)
so happy for them.
nat might come church this sat too!
am attending a night concert tomorrow.
invited vincent to go along, but he aint free.
i think i've let myself down alot.
teachers are really dissappointed in me.
and i myself am dissappointed in myself.
for failing in so much things.
band camp was not a success.
the ensemble compeition was not a success either.
i just cant get play really well on trumpet.
i want to be the best player one day.
i want to pursue in music if i am given that chance.
i want to take trumpet exams.
anyway, confirmed that i'm not playin for OPUS III.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

had EMaths test.2qns on Vector and Loci.
i didnt really study much.
met ms tan and mrs fong regardin band prac.
its like. =.= whatever lor. i just cant control my temper and really gave them faces.
had extra physics and AMaths lessons all the way till 5pm.
took bus with siying. talkin bout some church matters.
called my bro up,wanted to meet him up but he didnt pick up my call.
went home to rest.
just did revision on AMaths.
havin AMaths and Phy tests tomorrow.
i gona give a reply to ms tan tmr regarding band.
this week is comin to an end super fast.
happy that i got myself a so-called tutor for both chem n amaths.
ade's sis yeah. ;)
meet yanling at ntu this friday ;p

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

it was the first time that poa lesson is so enjoyable.
we are havin a mini project comin up.
that's makin yr own product in yr gps,and try to sell it.
and the budget and every other things.
this is too cool la! being a young entreprenur.
slept durin geog lesson. relief teacher came.
had extra EMaths lesson after school.
went home straight to sleep.
just done Maths hw. still abit unsure.
tomorrow after sch havin phy supplementary and AMaths lesson.
lessons are ending real late now.
i just dont understand.
what's wrong with miss one band practise?
what's the problem?
just now i told my mom,
" i didnt went for band prac today"
" why ?"
" bored la "
" now you find it bored "
" teacher called me up"
" tell her that you're tired,need rest"
but in fact i'm really tired.
and my trumpet is lying at home.
i know this is not an excuse.
think what.sec4 need not attend.
really wish to step down asap.
i'm steppin down in prefectorial board next thurs.
that's great !!
and i need not report 705am every morning alr.
super cool la.
havin the chance to sit in the parade sq and do silent reading.
tomorrow meeting band teacher.
hai.
i will live to love you,
i will live to bring u praise,
i will a child in awe of you.

Monday, March 20, 2006

monday bloos. kor woke me up and scolded dylan super loud in the early morni,screamin at him cos he's that type who cannot wake up.walked to yewtee with kor.he styled my hair for me! i think was sweet of him laa. i had a chat w him and i felt great. u know why? we dont have this kinda chats often.he's alwas so busy and i'm always so busy. mornin received trophy fr VP cos of e ensemble compet. we took part.super tired in class.slept durin PSE.know nuts bout AMaths 'cos ms ong was teachin a new chap. havin a makeup lesson with her on wed. tmr after sch extra suppl class too. everything was pushed back. so ended class at 220pm. recess time was like,1050am. how late and how hungry was i. >.<> ade at stadium and had discipleship in the badmintonhall.learnt new things today! ;) and we were chatting.i just felt very upset over some issues and i knew i was holdin back my tears,i didnt want to burst out crying, i didnt want to look so sad, i didnt want to think so much. i didnt know that much bout daryl kor.fr his friendster yeahs.all along i thought we were close but in actual fact we dont talk bout problems facing in this family.cos we knew there was nothing much to be done and said.we just felt like ending our lives and thats it.you will be freed fr everything.but will both still get together?more probs will occur and build up. she prayed for me. and whenever i hear her prayin for me,i feel *touched* and wanna just cry out. how do these ppl still concern for me so much,care so much for me,and every other things that you will never think of. i love these people. yea,its from my heart.
she was praying for me to be able to speak tongues.i felt something stuck in my heart.which cannot be said out. initally was feelin really scared. that kinda feeling.saying in an unknown language.and things like that.
took a late nap when i returned home. had dinner.
did maths new chap. ;p

Sunday, March 19, 2006

i'm thinkin how should i start off?
i rmbed ytd's competition so clearly, why?
God guided me all along,i could feel his presence.i was prayin very hard while waitin for our turn on stage. that 5 mins on stage was once in a lifetime.never would i dare to dream bout.
i played the high notes so easily without much effort!
thank god, ;)) shall pray instead of typin much here.hehe.
today went bible study w some godchasers members.
then we went Holland Village ,dined at Breko.
love the food there.yummy! had iced cuppuchino and sandwich.
lumei treated us potato wedges.
and then we were havin wonderful chats. :))
went home with meiyan.
took a nap.and had dinner.chatted with peng.love yr testi!
thank you so much.am truly *touched*
shall have discipleship tomorrow.
i love godchasers!
i think last night i prayed until i really fell asleep on bed,
my symphonymusic and lamp was still on when i woke up this morn.
and i woke up late 11am.
rushed and went to meet all the ensemble gps are 1130am.
there were percussion gp,esthers gp,woodwinds gp,double reeds gp,sax gp and brass gp.
the whole bus was occupied by us.
reached bukitimah cc just in time.
had warmups.
there werent many gps even though was opened to sec schs.
there were bedoktown ,bedoknorth, hougang and cck groups.
had warmups.super nervous.
both judgers were from JAPAN,.
the temperature is cold so tend to be flat.
and unable to reach high notes.
all i did was pray to god.
to help me.
to guide me.
plus all the other regent groups.
regent brass was 5th on stage.
yeah.was really shivering.
but.
to my surprise,
i was able to hit all the high notes!
i didnt expect that, cos all my rehearsals i wasnt able to do that.
i was really like. stunned.
really happy for myself.
but the mic was too near me,so everything i played was sharp.
argh~
siying was at the audience seat and so excited for me.
mr lim didnt comment much too.
ms tan and mr tan and ALUMNUS were there to suport us!
really want to thank them alots.
i love them!
i went off and took cab to church cos very lazy to walk.
joseph msged me and told me that we came in 5th,
siying's gp came in 3rd while regent percussion came in 2nd.
was really happy for them!
i feel its abit unfair cos they judged e compeition overall.
of kos percussion can get first.
they wont be out of tune that easily,
all they need is to hit the instruments.
but still,it's a good experience for all esp for the sec2s who performed.
well,we shall present the trophies to our principal on mon includin the cash which is bout $950,just for the school.
had church bbq just now.
rather fun i guessed.we were crazy.
got to know the people more.
people like cynthia,vincent,wilson,kenneth and my bro's friend.cant rmb his name.
we had so many newcomers today.
our gp is increasing so much.
its a good thing too.
shall try to bring my friends next sat.
got my bible! ;)
gona study tomorrow and get a good rest before sch reopens.
this family has changed.

Friday, March 17, 2006

prefect 11-13Mar and band 15-17Mar camps are over.
enjoyed both camps.
love mass dance/gaming/naps durin prefectcamp.
love torturous game/trekking/ durin bandcamp.
overall of prefectcamp:
super slack. rather discipline still. not so noisy sec1s. enthu in everything esp mass dance and cheering.
overall of bandcamp:
not up to our expectations. ICs are not doin proper jobs,unable to maintain the band therefore it was in disorder. some of the band members are not takin iniative. movements from place to place is too slow. but still, we managed to be on time for each programme.
still loves bandcamp more ;)
from what i could see,sec1s are pampered at home.
this is a band camp,
not any ordinary camps nor are we their parents.
nowadays kids are so spoilt.
i miss sleepin with my whole bunch of 12 exco mates.
i was sleepin in between zeting and charles.
first night slept at 3am plus cos alumnus bought supper for us!
trekkin at macritchie on the 2nd day mornin was great.i felt asleep and ended up lyin on zeting!
we walked for about 2 plus hours.
aww last night had ensemble practise with mr lim at 11 plus.
and then.was nt really satisfied with the results, i just cant play well.
was totally upset with myself.
practised with catherine till 130am and then had pizza for supper.
just now also had ensemble practise.
i feel i have to really push more air in order to pitch the higher notes.
highest note is ledger line A.
endurance is not good too.
gona rest my lips tonight.
and polish my trumpet later on.
and get a good rest for tmr's compeition.
i wish all the groups from regent band,bedoknorth band and hougang band
ALL THE BEST ;p
icant wait for church tomorrow!

Friday, March 10, 2006

i slept at 10 last night!
how amazin that i actually dozed off once i lie on my bed.
in e mornin was super hot,standin in front after flag raising.
the prefects were wearin blazers of kos.
so lini was suggestin that we walked away.
and we did.
gosh. how terrible were.
its considered rather rude 'cos the DM was talkin to the sch.
but . heck la. super super hot.
first 2 periods was physics lesson.
we did an assignment.
and i was sittin besides andy cos weisheng wanted to change seat with me.
had SS.
dont know what's wrong with mr ras.
he's mad.
had CHI lesson.
a,ashley and i were like takin many many different shots in her hp.
we even set timer!
i looked so CUTE! xD
had english lessons then.
i got 18/30 for letter writing.
its not up to standard.
i will aim for at least a 20 for my next letter writing/compo.
did corrections.
had AMAths lesson durin contact time cos ms ong wanted to finish the 2 sums.
i dont like permutations or combinations.
got back results slip.
failed POA and AMaths.
poa : 17/100
AMaths: 38/100
still lookin for Amaths tr,
intendin to drop poa.
but tr objected.
had full dress rehearsal aftr sch.
we looked so cool!
all of us are wearin e longsleeves white collar shirt,band skirt/pants and red tie.
we had the audience seats prepared too.
we even invited mrs fong,ms loh,ms lai,ms yeo,mr heng,ms tan and mrlim to hear us ;)
first was the Clarinets,followed by oboe+basson+sax gp,saxophone gp
then we,the Regent Brass!
err.what to say.we sounded like..
not up to standard for the competition.
mrs fong was sayin to us in front of so many ppl.
no good arh.
" jiahui is it becos of yr ulcer?"
i was like. GOSH. the whole world will know man. =.=
i just smiled.
what to do ;/
so we played again.
this time was better.
trumpets really need to prac more together
and get in tune.
the band camp,i m sure we will concentrate on the ensemble gp more.
after the rehearsal,
the saxophonists sort of havin probs
first time see aileen so so upset.
bedoknorth percussion came to our sch
to get percussion instrus
so we were carryin instrus down for them.
mrs gan gave ms tan 15 free bdn tics!
how nice of them ;P
we are a BIG band family =)
i went home with yvonne.
returned at bout 5.
went to meet steffy for studyin.
met prefect friends.
and nat.
she's so nice to buy the manuscript book for my section sec1s ;)
had light dinner.
so fast alr 10pm.
i have too many things to settle.
packin my bag for camp/band scores/studying.
not really excited bout prefect camp.
i'm sure i will be left out by them again ;/
lookin forward to band camp.
mon got kerwin's bbq!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

i'm feelin extremely tired due to today's pe lesson.
frisbee was fun,esp competin against my class dudes.
aww.u just cant imagine us using the whole parade sq.
its an awesome game!
and then we were also playin soccer. ;/
had english lesson.going through vocab test.
scored 83/100!
well..cos i used a dictionary. xP
chineselesson is just so slacked,
maths lesson is interesting.
got to know this thingy on my calculator, !
physics lesson.
at least this time round was fun.
we got to be electricians!
unscrew the plug and sorting in the earth wire,live and neutral wires.
had band.
i was complainin to mr lim and mrs fong.
" can i dont play later on? got ulcer "
mr lim was like...saying so much that i dontknow how to response.
and it all makes sense :)
every musician has to go through this,
this is only a trival matter,.
what if there's a competition?
mrs fong was like. later dont play if its serious.
in the end i stil played.
i managed to hit those high notes.
had ensemble practise too.
i got to know how to tongue lightly.
not doin it correctly.
maybe i was too tensed up,
too nervous,
and every other things.
to play music, first you have to relax.
this is true.
i gona learn light tonguin and clear articulation .
going back to the fundamentals. ;/
i gona get trumpet from yonglin soon!
practise hard.
after dismissal ,mr lim was talkin to me nat cat.
we were touched ;P by his concern for us.
the way we play,
keep on thinkin too much that nothing works out.
dont think too much,just play.
tomorrow havin fulldress rehearsal for competition.
sat-prefect camp. ahhh--

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

aww man.i'm dead tired.yesterday had discipleship with adelene.
took neoprints :))
saw churchmates- hester, meiyan,sandy.
returned home 7plus.
did an hour revision on the latest chapter in EMaths.
slept early.
today had 5 FREE PERIODS.
meaning i had 2.5 hours no lessons!
then had poa(slack) and geog.
geog was interesting..cos mdm rohaini always crack us up :P
went for ensemble prac.
mr lim hears and commented us.
we were supposed to play Russian Sailor Dance,
and we changed to HMF Pinafore.
we need more practises guys better buck up!
btw.
the compeition for brass has been postponed to 18th March,
which is right after bandcamp ;/
gona be so busy.
in just a week.
people,do go support us ks :)
i cant wait for bdn concert!
cant wait to see the whole Trumpet section again.
gona borrow yonglin's trumpet soon..

Sunday, March 05, 2006

last night i slept at 2am .. was on the phone with pengky.
she owes me a toberlone!!
so i woke up at 710am, and i thought i will be late for band.
but i wasnt ;)
had P.T ,and then took them for drills before breakin up for sectionals.
sectionals was only an hr cos we dont have much time left.
had the ensembles performance in front of whole band.
my ulcer hurts when i hit those high high notes..
arghhh//
gy wasnt ther to play his solo,so charles played 'cos it sets the tempo for the next part.
camp briefin. i am takin group SEVEN! and the camp theme is DANCE ;p
and guessed what? this group i'm takin, got 3 of my Tpet section members.
i'm so like,fated to be with them ;p
nathasha/ rena / noel.
nathasha's the Gp leader,while rena's the Asst.Gp leader.
how coincidence!
i'm sure my group wil be the best ;p
just cant wait for bandcamp.
went church with cellgp.
had icebreaker games .followed by sermon then cellgp study.
Pastor Daniel was talkin bout Temptations today.
it really,make me understand so much. like how to resist it.
if you want to resist it, flee away from it x)
dont even think of it.
gettin my bible in the comin week.
comin mon will be fasting till 2 weeks later yeah.
then we had dinner at beautyworld., and we took photos.
really toocrazy.
went rebecca's hse.
returned hm at 1130pm,
felt so bad,had to wait my mom up,cos didnt brim hse key.
tomorrow gona have 6hours bandmeeting!!!
way too cool -.=
okay,i'm tired.
i just love godchasers!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

yesterday had ensemble prac and rehearsal with other groups.
the feelin being on stage and with audience watchin you is really very scary.
nearly screwed up at the last part.beginnin was okay although was really very tensed up.
you have only ONE chance on stage,
if you miss it,that's it.
i wish all the groups, the Clarinet gp,Bassoon+Oboe+Clar gp,Percussion gp and we,the Regent Brass ,do our best!
12 more days!
then went to meet adeline for lunch.
met Ben also fr the same cellgp.
okay,today's poa lesson was much better,more interesting cos she was tellin jokes that really makes us laugh. then she gave us homework to do.i was like,starin hard at e qns.
"daziree ,take yr book and come over."
i was like. omg. 1 on 1 in class .-.
but then,luckily didnt la cos she was talkin to the class bout formin study groups.
i dontknow who's in my group la. cos iwas like 'anything' .
after school had physics remedial. i didnt turn up.tired. too lazy to
i think sure get scolded by ms lai very soon.
went home instead, forgot bout brass ensemble practise.
so charles was tellin me to prac at home.
slept only 2hours.then packed my room.
went to meet church sis, sandy at my house downstairs to get the books,The Purpose Driven.
had dinner with mom.
then went yew tee to get some stuffs.
expecting laypeng's call later. cyas!