Was deciding if I should skip today’s module,
because I felt so tired man.
But I still dragged myself to school.
Communication is always interesting and some new things I learnt such as
Close-ended questions/Open-ended questions , clarifying
questions, probing questions, leading questions
and so on.
My team was from the tabloid magazine, so we gave a lot of latest gossips.

Today the four of us shared.
It was a nice chat.
Amin, remember not to be foolish and rash.
I’m just a call away.

Met melody.ting,hazel,matt in my school for dinner.
Went to Innova JC for Band Concert to support Aaron yap wee teng.
Took group photos.
Went to causeway point to play arcade version of basketball.
Needless to say, I WON EU JUNHAO!
The rest of them had dinner at causeway while we left first.
I sent melody home la.
I’m soo sooo sooooo nice ;D
Returned home at eleven plus.

Matthew,I’m sorry that there’s no basketball
Game tomorrow. Another time then.
Yes,i know i didn't talk to you few days already.


Yes I know what’s happening.
Stay strong.
I’m by your side helping you.
I want to say, I’m so proud of you.

I didn't attend sch today.
Anyway the problem became worst.
It seems that it was the last resort.
mm.
Why,What,When,Where,Who and How.

I just recalled a lot of things when played with them.
POP piece has changed to Amparito Roca.
It tested my stamina and endurance.
and I realised I'm lacking practises.
Dinner with bandies at lot1.
talked about several issues.
I felt really terrible,because I'm unsure how to help.
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Anyway,Thanks Noel for the box of strepsils!!
Happy Birthday to my dearest junior : KUNJIE ;D
Rebecca: Better start practise more on piano now!
Well,tomorrow morning shall go back Rgtband for sectionals before heading to school.Hopefully I'm able to wake up.

Pop,popping,poped,popy.

Yes,you allowed me to.

Yesterday morning meet Liting and Hazel.
They came to my place.
Then we went cycling around yew tee area.
We explored a few places and took photos too.
Then went to my place and rest.
Went to lot 1 for lunch with junhao too.
He came so late, if not I would have join them in the arcade session.
Rushed to meet Rebecca to Ang Mo Kio.
AMK hub is so cool!
The mrt station,the bus interchange are all in the mall.
I want to go there shop one day.
Meet huimin,fidah,yonglin,dor,shaoming together to go PhilYouth.
Practice was at SA.
Mr Glosz was quite detailed.
Enjoyed the warmups ‘cos it really warm me up,
and its not on scales,its on chromatic,slurrings and so on.
Rushed to meet liting, noel and hazel for dinner at panjang.
Then went to liting’s place to talk.
Mm this was my Sunday then.

and to my dearest sayang.
no matter what stay strong.
you are going through it.
and i;m going through it.
let's spur one another on!

talked to her online for less than an hour.
i seriously miss her so much.
faster come back sg :]

I missed the memories we spent.
When we eat,laugh,talk and you acted so cute.

juniors pictures (:

pics in school:

Looking back,
I achieved much in my secondary school and at the same time I didn’t.
My life revolved with band daily.
It’s like a meal which I cannot sacrifice.
Even at this second, I’m thinking about RWS.
How are they going to survive now.
What’s the main issue in band now.
Why did this happen.
When did this happen.
Who are the people involve.
Yeah, the 5 big Ws and 1 lil H.
Three out of 6 days (without Sundays) revolves with band.

Those times I dreaded going band,
when I don’t feel like attending band practice, when I feel that I’m such a lousy player in band, when I didn’t have much close friends in band, when my mom nagged at me because of band, when me(including my batch) got scolded by teachers for being proud, when I have so many meetings with excos (almost once a week),when I threw my temper in band,when I walked out in band, … ...

But, only through band.
I learnt.
To be patient.
To control my temper.
To be polite.
To lead my section/band.
To serve my band.
To teach.
To play well. (musically)
To be strong no matter what comes in my way.
To persevere on though it seems that its’ going to collapse.
To come out with all kinds of solutions for all kinds of situations.
To be well-prepared at all times. (proposals for camps in advancement)
To entertain.
To be able to have a wider connection of musicians.
To be a role model.
To be fit. (physically)

And this is who I’m now.

If there’s no band in my 13th year,
I wouldn’t have become who I am today.

I might be some rubbish chickening lians loitering outside.

But thanks be to band,
That I’m not.

If someone said you’re dumb just because you’re unable to play the rhythm,
Do not take it what they say.
For they’re dumb enough to comment you before looking at themselves in the mirror.
For they have no right to comment about you.
For they’re not YOU.
And you’re YOU yourself.

Cheer up girl.
I’m here for you.
Do not get affected by what people says.
Look at yourself.
Be confident and feel good about yourself!

Practice makes perfect.
But since no one’s perfect,
Then do the best YOU can do.

know your limit.

Photos taken yesterday:

Dad bought a new desktop and its rather huge comparing with my original desktop beside it.

Was so lethargic in class today that I didn’t concentrate and absorb any learning points.
So screwed up my presentation for today. Unable to explain my slides well and I even needed help from my team members. I realized that my weakness was unable to explain well enough to the class and halfway through my explanation, I tend to forget what I want to say. How short my memory is. I have no idea what caused this, maybe I ’m having too many thoughts in my mind.

One of the experiment we did:

I was asking my senior online just now regarding my RJ, any points to add on.
He seemed quite frustrated with me that he said something like he was busy with UT just now and even CAPLOCKS the word ‘SO’ to me. Here I’m trying to ask question and yet I got something which I don’t deserve from you.
What has actually happened to both our friendship?
I have been pondering over this issue since two weeks ago. I don’t get it still.
Why are you treating me like that?
Is it wrong to ask a small favor from you?
And also to *you, we’re so cold towards each other now.
Did I do anything that in your context, its considered wrong?
I was really disappointed before I attended band practice today.
It seems that I owe the world something.
You might not know how I feel deep down there.
But, I don’t deserve this kind of treatment from you.

I learnt another lesson. Never contact the person just to ask a favor.

Just now after band my junior called me to meet up.
Went to lot1 to meet her, she told me about her instrument issue.
Her eyes tells me she's worried sick.
Sent her home.
She was carrying two instruments home.
But I didn’t get to send her to doorstep as it was late already.
mmm. We shall see about tomorrow then.

Give me a break.

Damn my exam book is not with me for one week.
So I wasted one week of not being able to practise.

I miss hockhuey and her cheerfulness (:

junhao and matthew (: (nightconferences peeps)

and thanks matthew,for sharing with me so much last night!

hockhuey and me :D (trumpetor junior)

Liting's pose1:

Pose 2:

Pose 3:

Pose 4:

In the bus.

i love my juniors +D

huijuan and liting.

movies again.

hazel huijuan liting
while waiting for bus.

we had water fight.

anyu and steph :D

ming en after bathe.

melody :]

matthew.

I went for RWS chalet on Friday.

But unfortunately,not every single member were there.

In the morning slacked around,watched movies and went pasir ris park.

Some of us went Wild Wild Wet in the noon.

melody.juan.ting.hazel.noel.fer.gangyuan.ming en.jim.yvonne.nich.matt.junhao.jennifer.steph.cecilia.

We took like twice of Slide Up since it's the only ride that's open.

such an agressive motion ride.

First round I took with Steph,the next round was with felicia.

Then we went tsunami wave,shiok river,waterworks and yakult playground.

So many rides not open.

Went back to costa for a swim before having band bbq.

alumnus came shortly after that.

chatted with noel.matt.junhao and hockhuey.

went white sands with hockhuey.

watched movies.

went cycling with ting.

chatted then fell asleep with ting.

one mattress shared by 3 person.

morning woken up by 'Sinking of Japan'.

We checked out and took train back together.

I went home and fell asleep till 5pm.

Rushed to AnYu's place 'cos so many juniors were waiting for me.

movies again.

then sent ting and hazel home.

wanted to return the vcds with anyu at lot1,but closed already.

so went to her place to watch tv.

her mom asked me to eat crabs together.

but i didn't.i felt so sleepy then I went home.

Stayed at home during the first half of today and watched DORM.

Went to meet matt.junhao.hazel and jennifer for SAF band concert.

A fantastic performance.

The french horns were so powerful,that even my hair starts to stand.

Of the whole repertoire,I enjoyed Winanga-Li the most.

It's one of the most unique piece I've ever heard before.

Just by reading the synopsis of the Winanga-Li,you will know why.

Today SAF band tried to do something different.

With a mini-play, trumpetors playing at the sides, singer, story-teller,10 percussionists in a row (like drumline).

But its sad that there were not a big crowd of audience.

Let me tell you, the audience there were childish bunch of kids who make stupid dumbnoises,and interrupted me most of the time.

I didn't quite get to appreciate the music.

Wanted to sit at the 2nd level after the interval,but its only for guests.

Dinner at causeway point with Junhao and Matthew.

We talked mostly on Band as usual.

Went to Lot1 with Matthew afterwards to chat longer before heading home.

They actually wanted to conference with me but im shagged.
UT test on tues :/

I just hope that your group will get together.Do not drag any longer.

When I have already said Ashairmalimbumb isnt any vulgar word in Japan,
why do you still say it is without finding the actual truth when you actually heard it from someone else and actually believe?

How dumb can this be?
And it actually hurts me.
People might misinterpret me.

The probability of Ashairmalimbumb being a vulgar word is Less than o.ooo1% .
That's because I formed the word out of nothing at all.
And how can I be so accurate to form any vulgar word?
Yes sometimes I say that to replace vulgarities.
It's just another form of replacement, it also shows that a replacement word doesn't mean its a vulgar word.



So I ask you, Is matsuka suka another form of vulgar word in any country?

I'm very much amused.

I think we should reflect on ourselves.
yes you might be tired of hearing people telling you to reflect reflect and reflect.
But that's one of the crucial part in our life.
We cannot miss out that few minutes just to reflect.

Reflecting means
to think, ponder, or meditate: to reflect on one's virtues and faults.

what do you mean by thinking?
questions as simple as this:
-What are some of the mistakes I've learn today?
-What are some of the points I can learn from other people today?
-What changes am I going to bring about today?
-Is there any weaknesses/strengths I found out about myself today?
and etc.

You notice I used the word 'Today' for all the questions.
It shows that you should be doing reflection on yourself daily, most preferably after the end of all the programmes you have in a day.

After reflecting,
go a step further.
To start to make new changes for your own adaptation.
Plan how you want to work it outand what you should change.
People wants to change.
In the end what I see is people just saying,not doing.
No actions to be done.
Then why do you say that in the beginning.

If you say it, then do it.
If you think you're not up to it yet,then don't say out first.


part2 conversation ended with junhao.

don't you know there's miscommunication when you say
"spread the message" and you only inform like one person?

fri's boring for me.
supper at yewtee with rebecca.
i met my pioneer batch trumpetor- kewei.
then i met my pioneer batch flautist's mom,who's also my cousin.
singapore's quite small.
then she came to my house,watched a lot of movies,
till i cant take it,slept at 5am while she went off to sleep at 7am.

then saturday morning meet junhao first.
wanted to play games at arcade and he was late!
then meet fer n noel.came to my house.
movies.study.
my dad fetched them to lot1.
i went for mother's day dinner at LONG BEACH.
woah i love the durian dessert and pepper crabs!
then i went home.
meet godwin at causeway.
we slacked around and chatted.
took the last train back.
went to fish's place to stayover cos i dont want to be home alone.
and she updated me with so much stuffs.
i miss fads (:

today's sunday.
i went town at 11am to meet RAFE!
quite fun lar,we bought things,ate at pastamania,chatted about our own bandsand crapped.
went to music essentials to get my second book while he got his bassoon book.
Given that price of the book,i can buy 7 sets of Student Price Mac Meal(no upsize).
took cab together and i alighted at la salle for band prac.
in the pieces,i learnt new things.
okay i gona learn flutter tonguing from my section mates.
huimin didn't come practise ;(
went home with dororin.
and i just chatted on the phone with junhao.
this was only Part 1 of our conversation (:


sickening.you all didn't even noted us.

I miss FADSJ =)

I'm like so happening in class everyday.

yesterday's module communication was so so so fun.

today had UT test, its like based on common sense and logic.

Basic science was like so dull.

some of my classmates are like racing Crazy Taxi together.

quite fun actually.

Woah quite an achievement when I can play all the notes for 3rd movement in first suite in Eb. when go through in the original tempo,i couldnt really do that.

yar fucking embrouchure now.

i cant play well now.

and i've got less than 5 months to really change totally.

i'm so uncertain now.

should i withdraw given this kind of standard of mine?

YINJIE! sorry tomorrow unable to.
I'm so excited to meet RAFE this sunday though we're just going to get our music books,but it will be fun (;

i'm not working tomorrow after school.

so i'll be free.

But if anyone wants to date me out,let me practise my trumpet at home first! [;

wakakka.

but i want to ask xxxxx to have dinner together man. (:

still deciding should go eating feast with godwin tomorrow at late night.

'cos sat is gona be a day i spend with my bandmatess (means i need more rest, as if i will sleep early =/ )

i wanna go night joggin or cycling tomorrow.

muhhaha. like how fun can it be.WHO's interested?

I miss my mom man.

its like so boring at home just with my brother everyday.

z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.
I do miss those people too.

please.ASHAIRMALIMBUMB is not any VULGAR word.please don't go around spreading that its a JAPANESE vulgar word for FUCK.It's actually some funny weird word which i created myself.

dont spread some untruth stuff.

I didn't attend school today.
I feel so lazy to wake up and what's more,more than half of my class didn't attend class.
my dad actually did housework. :D
was waiting for hockhuey and liting to call me.
but only liting called me.didn't meet her,cos not much time already.
and hockhuey bluffed me, :(
went school for band practise.
sectionals with godwin is fun. lol.
then combine.awuh, upset that none of the year1 trumpetors came except for me.
dinner with godwin at causeway.
then went home 'cos tired.
rebecca came to my place.
and now im on the phone with Li ting!
ah. im so bad, i didnt help her for her art and she had to stay awake till lateee.

i miss my mom's cook food.

yayay this module is so fun and keeps me interested in.
karen goh bananas(faci) actually shared with us something!
meet noel and fer to pass them ticket for Tank concert.
and then after the concert,
we went to library for oreo cheesecake and muffins!
noel wanted to ride in uncle Ringo,i told her was not worth.
wait till we go Escape Theme Park in 2 weeks time ;)
took neoprints at causeway point and then went home.
wanted to go night joggin with helmi but he felt asleep!
i talked with hockhuey on the phone.
it was fun and i think it was the first time we talked for quite long :P
and then liting called me.
so we chatted like over funny stuffs and band chalet before i did my RJ.
She crapped with me so much about that something.
I'm helping her for her art tomorrow 'cos she needs to rush it before wed.
I don't want her to go detention!
well,i'm very protective of my juniors :]
Hock Huey is so cute.
she make up the RWs-trumpeters Tutorial tomorrow.
and haven't decide where will it be yet.maybe at my place.

'cos i have some activity tomorrow,then hockhuey said this,

[c=#811257]` x - trinity . [/c] says:does it clash with trumpet tutorial?

HAHHA,I love hock huey! muhahaha :D
she wants to take photo with me tomor.

I don't know,I get so bonded with my section only after I graduated.
noel complaint i was too fierce when i'm around.
HAHAHAHA.

dude RAFE wants to meet me this sunday to get music exam books!
he misses me so so so much :D

i don't want to create another new beginning for us.

keep a distance,shall we?

I want to update my blog,but I want it to come with pictures of today
but but but but.
i'm so lazy to load picsa from my hp.
so i'm just gona update with wordss.
how wordly it gona be.

I woke up as early as 730am.
to help my mom do some stuffs before she takes her flight.
then i went back to sleep for like 2 hours before i got woken up by a call. =/
went to meet godwin at causeway and as expected,he's late.
we dined at SAKAE SUSHI :D
awwuh the food is so delicious!
good food must be paid with a high price :]
he bought two stuffie toys for my juniors.
cos my juniors are his junior(me) 's juniors.
i'm like so jealous ;(
and he got TANK tickets for Noel & Felicia at RP.TRCC tomorrow.

Tank's Keep Fighting concert tomorrow,at Cultural Centre from 430pm-530pm.

afterwards i went home to sleep.
then dad drove brothers and i for dinner at panjang plaza.
Guess what?
Had Ichiban Sushi for dinner.
I'm sick of japanese food now.
then we went grocery shopping at ntuc.
how fun.
my dad's very very funny and lame.
yayy i bought chocs and sweets for tomorrow's class :D

tomorrow for lunch,i'm going to have cake feast. :D
i dont know how will it gona be.
but we're doing something we never do before!

actually,i do miss my mom now.
no home cooked food.
:( :( :(


i just want to tell you that,no matter what, i'm here.
you can count on and trust me.
and i love you my dearest friend (:
seriously i do.
not telling you to appreciate what i'm doing for you,
but i will try my very very best to do anything for you (:



you tell me,
is it a curse?

The things around me are changing antagonistically.
why did he conk out?
why did she conk out?
why do the loved ones around me left Earth just so abruptly,without telling me anything at all?I'm in a somber mood now.
Possessions are gettin' lost or stolen.
Relationships are gettin' rotten.
friends who are sad affects me too.
especially xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Sighed.
My energy's up.
no more no more pretty please?
am I to blame?


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Even though her parents're not always there for her,
she's still standing so solidly even till today.
I'm encouraged although she didn't share with me this.

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went to woodlands library with noel,yvonne and hockhueytoday.
Philyouth practise was cancelled,so we went to yvonne's place for movie in the evening.
then took a bus with hockhuey and noel to Panjang.
Wanted to meet LiTing but it was a last min decision that her mom wants her to be home early.
walked hockhuey home and then went mac with noel.
went her house.
awuhh,I feel I'm so much younger being with her.
what's more,people mistaken me for a sec2 kid!
I left her house late though,but really had fun and it bonds us more.
I learnt something new about her today! :]


I'm looking forward to RegentWindSymphony Chalet in 2 weeks time!

YESTERDAY.

I went to meet noel,hockhuey and felicia at lot1.

we packed food and went to ANYU's place to eat.

noel didn't tell us anyu ordered so much pizza. =/

taught the both of them maths,slacked,played,msned,cartoons,sing,videoing and F2!!

HAHAHA! I learnt what's F2 function in the laptop now.

YYYYAAAAAyyyYYY! I'm like trying out on everyone who's online.

Aaron,Zhenjun,Suhaila,Junice,Karena,Helmi,Hayati,Noel,Felicia,ZHengjie,Noel,Hockhuey were there :D

Went Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner with noel and huey.

rebecca joined too.so we talked so much about band until we forgot the time.

we took videos and photos!

and took 1 round in the LRT before going home.

I returned home at 1230am.

and noel was waiting for me to be online at 1am plus.

sorry noel ma ying er.

aauwwh. I really do miss my trumpet section in Regent Wind Symphony.

yay I've finally attained an A!

for the module, Communication.

ashairmalimbumb!

and guessed what.

after my class,rafe called me,

asked If I want to go joggin at Bedok Reservoir!

BLABLABLA.

but i love crapping with dude. :p

I hope SAMANTHA is coming class tomorrow! ;]

i'm worried for my junior now.