i slept at 2am yesterday, watched some tv programme with dylan.

and woke up 730am and went for band. was in the music room durin sec1s combine with ms loh. was there to hear them. they played What A Wonderful World. my juniors are improvin, noel and hock huey's solo is SUPERB! hoho- i am happy for them. and also for 2nd trumpetors =D and overall, was not bad. but i feel that the sec1s lack of support from seniors' helps. that why their very fundamentals not there yet though they know how to play. maybe like they know what is dotted crotchet but cannot play to the exact value. sectionals with benny. seniors were focusing on Danse Diabolique and dances pieces. taught my juniors. and then i went to teach horn sec1s,. i talked to Sky yeap,finally i got the chance to talk to him. talk to him bout church and music theory which he didnt understand.oh no, his seniors didnt teach him bout key signatures and stuffs like that. taught the eupho sec1 girl too. i realised that seniors didnt spend much time with juniors,lack of communication and bonding which is very terrible that's happening in my band. and i am glad to see 90% of the sec1s bringing instruments home,even for those very HUGE instru like TUBA. am upset that seniors are not showing good example. my trumpet is already passed down to NATHASHA, so must take good care of that trumpet ;D

went to church later on. sky cant go last min. yaukun also.

the sermon was about emotions.. i thank God that i learnt and realised so much now. i might have been a really nasty person to some people in church baa. i allow my feelings to take control of me. i vent my anger or hate people who did somethings which i dislike.i always fear many things and let fear makes me feel very very afraid of anything. this was very very wrong of me. and i brought people nothing but troubles and burdens.

i dont want to trouble anyone already,.

i feel really terrible bout myself.

sorry people. i think i brought many problems to you people already.