listening to stairways to heaven,that korea drama series., e song is so sad.

i wonder, what the hell was i born and bring into this world?

i hated so many things,

i hated my life, especially.

i hated the way i'm livin right now.

it just dont rock, as in sucks. awww.

but i just cant do anything.

a sense of terror and darkness right in my eye.

i'm feeling painful, real pain.

just some kind of feelings.

i'm utterly dissappointed today.

with my trumpet section.

am i that demanding??

i'm really not up to te expectation of being a section leader.

why cant they just,, memorise e scales, play loud, still so shy bout playing out,

dont ask qns, practise their etudes.??

and what in e world are they given their own cornet (for te whole yr in this sec life) ,

their own tone&technique, symphonic books for?

arent they wasting their own precious time and money ??

i'm just so curious to know why dont they practise?

they might as well, just join librarian , arrange e books and stuffs like that.

isnt that much simpler?

my juniors still are not coping well.

they cant play scales well other than Cmajor.

so dissappointed.,

this is not te first time.,

its been e dont know what times.

i'm been really patient.

i think its time to set some punishments so that they will do their work.

its just te same as sch work.

listen to tr, do yr work and hand up to tr.

hai_

nothing can express how i am feeling right now.

as a senior,

i should really talk to them more.

talked to them like. umpteen times.

many things just happened.

but i'm really glad, that i did my AMaths hw which is supposed to hand up next mon and clarify my doubts w ms jane ong.

i'm awake finally,,

wasting my 8months as sec3.

to now study hard.

commontest is just next week,

i gona score well.

;)

i have faith in myself!!

yesterday dont intend to go out but to stay at home to revise.

but,, ard 2plus, classmates asked me go watch fireworks.

was so lazyy to go out.

went meet them,,

guessed whadd?

i was wearing red tee w white bottom. cool rite.?? sg's bday man.

so crowded at jurong east.

took rides in e tankers. whahaha!!

and wanted to try out for bungee jump but so long queue.

really v crowded.

there was a big screen, screening national day parade.

dined at my fav jap fastfood. ;p

then kept on screaming.

saw fireworks. first time. i was amazed. ;p

so beautiful.

if only i watched with him..

we waited by e roadside for an hour plus, just for e tankers.

omg, it was totally cool.

got to see different tankers..

and can hear them shooting their guns but no bullets lar.

very loud.

lol.

we passed by IMM, bot some snaacks to eat in 188 Bus.

went home myself, returned at 1130pm,,

was very late.

and scary,, cos of e festival-

slept early,12plus.

today went Bugis with mom.

err. was alright.

didnt get to buy anything.

ate takopachi for dinner.

not hungry.

i hate takopachi.

it sucks.

tmr havin physics test.-.

lau pa sat performance was overr.

10 pieces at one shot, believe it or not.

lips was tired,, nevertheless still tried my best.

but didnt hit e highnotes for merry widow, e Presto part.

i was angry w myself initially.

hai_ i'm dissappointed with myself for pieces like Highlights and Starlight.

blue ridge saga solo was alright,i guessed.

there was an encore piece, which i was alr super tired.

made in sg, e top As are killing me, and 1 per part. ;/

end of concert, received sweets n chocos from bdn bandmates..

took photos.

met mr heng,he was so supportive that hecame. i was shocked.

bot a drink only, had e 2bucks coupon.

in e bus, havoc. brasses rock!!

hate dat teacher. zz.

had supper w becky,zeting,charles,jun,minfang,dor,yvon,yoklian,aileen,amy and some sec4s.

only bot mushroom soup at 7-11.

mom came to fetch me,

returned hm 1230am.

tired_

sunday mornin went church w fesh,drey. met steff n her sis bro.

trying to get used to it ba.

then we went west mall,

janice was waiting for us ther.

we bot packed Burger King meals.

and went to her condo,The Jade which was just besides mrtstation.

and fr her rm , we kept on shoutin at e ppl at e station. lol. we r maddies.

she got so many games lor, and we worked on our cmeproject.

after tt, steff n dreyy left.

we went to play tennis.

we r craazy, lol. fesh shot e ball to e outside of e condo. omg.

then went swimming ..

took photos too.

left at 5plus.

returned home.

ard 9pm,went dinner w mom n dad at Adam road food centre.

love the sting rays there ;p

returned hm at 1030pm le.

omg, our school national day was so boring-

orbiang,,

had my t signed by alot of ppl- lol.

went town w bandmates. at 1plus.

was bored,

took photos,,

then went borders c music bks.

so cool,

and listen to some bandmusics..

went to SJI parade.

was cool. it seems like NDP.,

left there at 6plus to meet someone at town .

meet e rest back ,, took 190 bus.

went lot1 for dinner, Food Culture.

had korean meal!!!

went to meet my mom n bro then, shopped ard lot1 but shops closed alr.

took cab back home, feelin super tired. slept at 12plus.

___

what a great tuess. had good sleep but not enough. wahaha

dad woke me up, supposed to go cousin's hse. but didnt go.

stayed at hm watched some cartoons. ;p

wentto meet mom forlunch,,

and now here,online.

no one home exceptme n mom.

goin watch fireworks w friends later ;p

wad tiring sch days..

weekdays seldom online now.

so dont get to blog often.

so sorrie ppl.

am playin game w feng online now-

been busy, with band. and studies.

had lotsa tests.

today had chi test, ytd had poa test, 2 days ago had phy quiz..

had studyin hard.,, trying to.

3 days ago, wed.

aftr assembly went hm took my certs.

then went back sch for extra lessons.

at 430pm left w thomas to Lavender.

need to make my Ic and he accompanied me.

he's so nice, ;p thats why he;s my best bud.

reached there bout 450pm and they closed like at 5pm.

e lady was so nice to let me take my photo and make Ic.

e photo suks. argh-

then ate at beach road, chatted w thomas, regardin many of band stuffs ;p

which he also enjoyed larr.

then shopped ard.

took bus back to BukitBatok.

which was a 3 hrs ride back. omg.

reached bukitbatok at like, 9 pm.

shopped at west mall. lol_

then he pei me home lor. so tired. , just to make a Ic.

yesterday supposed to hav oral.

and then guys start first.

and girls waited lor.

omg, waited for 3 hrs.

and that 3 hrs, was fun.fun.fun.

mengyi and i were havoc in e class.

we were like, playing.

running in e class playin catching ;/

played twister.

played some handgames.

even played horse ridin games..

omg.

you wont believe it .

and we took e front of e class to be e stage,so she was like singin and dancin plus her crazy hairstyle.

waited fr 230pm to 500pm,

and then mr zahed came in and said bandmembers need to go for prac.

so mengyi and i went for band while phylis took oral.

returned home bout 8pm, just like today.

cooked maggie mee for myself just nw.

havent iron my band uniform for tmr's concert.

performance @

LAU PA SAT

7pm- 8pm

;)

go support!!

am practising v hard man. for e 10pieces.

gosh, i will run out of air .

and how am i gona survive for Made In Sg w e top A. -.-

and each per part.

sleeping soon, aftr polishin boots, iron uniform.

so tired.

the day i fall in love ..

omg, that song is soo nice.

yvom tan sent me.

monday blues.

chem was alright, it's always interestin w ms chong.

eng, we played stewpid games to compete against diff gps.

guessed whad's my gp called?

SILVER KNIFE!! ;p that's a korea show.its damn.. omg, its M18 anyway and i watched it 4 times.

then EMAths lesson, omg

i gona send to DC. tried to finish up my hws. left w 2 assignments not complete.

recess_ had to do duty.

had poa, fell asleep.

ms merduati said if we have sweets,she give us permission to eat.

luckily i did brim cos i knew i gona sleep. ;)

geog test.

was not easy.

PSE. just talkin session bout marriage.

helped fads' club to wash tr's cars and got paid.

today we washed Ms Merduati,Mr Thomas Tan, Mr Chow, Mdm Soh s' cars.

tmr they have out 7 more cars. but havin band tmr.

today mdm zhao came to class look for me.

i was munchin on baked corns. ;p

she said, eatin arh?

i smiled at her SWEETLY lol!!

she told me bout me n siying representing e band for some discussions w other cca regardin dontknow what competition.

its held tmr, fr 2-330pm.

i was so shocked -.-

its gona be boring. and i gona miss out e warmup sessions_

5 more days to performance!!

i'm SAD

just sad, purely sad-

over whadd??

many many things.

relationship,

studies.

i dont want to get into another relationship again

i'm trying not to.

i dont want to be hurt, or hurt another person.

but.

these feelings came back for youu,,

there must a reason for it.

i'm falling deep for you again.

its a different feeling.

i'm just standin at te side,

filled with envious//pain//sorrow//jealousy.

i know , i know.

i dont look sad fr te outside.

i'm happy, i'm cheerful.

that's just daz-

you're not mine,

never.

and its hard that you know its yr heart you cant trust,

there's a reason why people dont stay where they are.

baby, love just aint enough

our CAPs ;p wow 

let's do itttt 

e more professional style,  

FADS / ;p wahah- contractor-me! worker-drey!  

they, in e mrt. havoc -lp 

FADS. turned out steff n fesh didnt shout -.- 

hehe, the cheerful us, at marina south. why thomas so buay ba 

yummyie, ;p  

us, by e beach 

US, by e beach- ;p  

hock and i, ;p one of my great best guy-pal, 

here comes e professional fisher, lol =x 

fishing. wahah,at te jetty .steff unhappy 

[first celebration of my bday] at east coast- FADS cycling- to think, drey didnt fall down!