listening to stairways to heaven,that korea drama series., e song is so sad.

i wonder, what the hell was i born and bring into this world?

i hated so many things,

i hated my life, especially.

i hated the way i'm livin right now.

it just dont rock, as in sucks. awww.

but i just cant do anything.

a sense of terror and darkness right in my eye.

i'm feeling painful, real pain.

just some kind of feelings.

i'm utterly dissappointed today.

with my trumpet section.

am i that demanding??

i'm really not up to te expectation of being a section leader.

why cant they just,, memorise e scales, play loud, still so shy bout playing out,

dont ask qns, practise their etudes.??

and what in e world are they given their own cornet (for te whole yr in this sec life) ,

their own tone&technique, symphonic books for?

arent they wasting their own precious time and money ??

i'm just so curious to know why dont they practise?

they might as well, just join librarian , arrange e books and stuffs like that.

isnt that much simpler?

my juniors still are not coping well.

they cant play scales well other than Cmajor.

so dissappointed.,

this is not te first time.,

its been e dont know what times.

i'm been really patient.

i think its time to set some punishments so that they will do their work.

its just te same as sch work.

listen to tr, do yr work and hand up to tr.

hai_

nothing can express how i am feeling right now.

as a senior,

i should really talk to them more.

talked to them like. umpteen times.

many things just happened.

but i'm really glad, that i did my AMaths hw which is supposed to hand up next mon and clarify my doubts w ms jane ong.

i'm awake finally,,

wasting my 8months as sec3.

to now study hard.

commontest is just next week,

i gona score well.

;)

i have faith in myself!!