i woke up at 130pm. supposed to meet ade for lunch but she was busy. so i went for lunch with siying at lot1 opp that coffeeshop.i told her i feel like eatin in coffeeshop 'cos i have not been eatin at coffeeshop for long. then met dris. asked her if she had popular card with her. and she gave us..was charles' card. ha. so went popular. i bought a blank book.for my spiritual journal. then i went home. i was stuck outside my house for nearly 2 hours.. my bro was sleepin and i had no house key. awwhh. the feeling wasnt nice. luckily i had my purpose driven life and bible to read. then at 9plus i went dinner with bro. mm.had not been talkin to him for long..so found out abit bout himself. then he wanna compete with me eatin lemon. awwhh. very very sour ahhh. he won la. lol. i gona return this SNOW hammie to my friend soon.. he belongs back to the previous owner.i cant take care of him anymore. i dont want to kill another little tiny life again. =( o. bye snoowww. i'm so bored. dont think i m gg for movie with some Godchasers. o well,so sorry!
needa save money for Radical Conference. and then sch's reopening so soon =( and then MY B DAY ;p yeahyeah.someone already prepared my present le. how how fast ! ;p



i dislike people trying to say bad things , giving people a bad impression of church. you better stop it. you know who you are. and better get out of my sight .i dont wish to see you here in singapore. stop pullin the band people away from church. you are gettin on my nerves.



Lord You're so amazing,
every word You say is true,
better than the finest treasure,
so glad that i found You.

today went to church. aiya.i woke up at 1230pm. was late. then met mingen,jia yin and siying to church. reached bout 3pm already. had cg games.followed by sermon.so cool to have that once-addicted online-gamer to come and like share with us his experience. an interview with him yeap. and now i know so much more. o well. i think when i was in sec1 i was so hooked on Gunbound. you might think its childish right.haha. and some time in this year i played maplestory. o well.i was so bored of the game that i stopped playin and find it rather childish. anyway.people dont get so hooked on online games.so so so unhealthy and terrible.
left church very late. 10 plus.
there s this song i like. part of the lyrics goes like this:

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only i ask
And how many times have You heart me pray
Draw near to me



i know i've always upset You.but still You continue to forgive me. when i'm sad, You are much more upset than me. for i know that i 've not been doing good for the past few days. i drifted away from You. i dont want to drift further from You anymore. show me the way o Lord.



Take me to that secret place
where i can only see You face
and nothing else will ever feel this way
You take away my guilty stains
the things i've done that i cant change
its only by the power of Your name


also like this song. All i want is You ;p

o well. today i did nothing much.
i went to my mom's friend place.. till evening..had dinner there. it was at a bungalow la.very huge. then i went lot1 with my mom..did abit of shoopping then go home cos she was very tired already. returned home and online.
zz.
i feel so so .
dontknow.
dont pang seh.. please.. i hate it.
zzz
zz
z
z
z
z
zzzz
im so broke. arghh.



have fun becky.

i dont want to fall any deeper already.
Lord please help me.

o well. ade.if you're readin this post. thanks so much.for talkin to me.although i kept v quiet on the phone. well.dont get so tired out..sleep earlier,okays? ; ]

josh's at my hse now.he justccame. so late -.-
i gona study tomorrow.


going accordin to Your will, Your plan!

super boring day. early mornin woke up just to go sch for band. then mr tan said i couldn play for opus.
HOW SADDENING. nearly cried.but i didnt. z.z.z
but was alright after some people talked to me- charles, zhenjun,jordan ;P thanks..

then some bdn people came cos they have to do smt. pigiie 2 patted my head. o gosh. i'm not an animal la.lol. i miss you larrr! ;D
after some practises, i left. oooo. yonglin ,your trumpet technique book is with me! ;] then i left, went to siying' s house. we bought packed LJS and rented vcd to watch. till i fell asleep.
very tired.
went home to sleep till 10pm. no one woke me up. lol. i slept for 4hours! =x thenn. chatted with my both brothers .stupid idiot retarded brothers- both are so lame. lol. always make me laugh so so much. esp daryl the rhino ;p good to see them at home too laa.
went online not long to promote some stuffs. o.O yeah.and to blog. just now also chatted with this bdn sis, sihui ;P
i want to see my bandmates soon!

this friday's concert.
MONFORT MILTARY BAND
VICTORIA CONCERT HALL.
$10

People out there,
MR CHAKRIT is performing!
go and support HIM ;D

many many thoughts ran through my mind:

how am i going to live by down the road in 10 years time?
where am i going to live after two more months?
why do i let the band teachers upset/down/angry/dissappointed with me time and again? what have i done?
why am i falling away?
why do i let myself down ?
why do i give up so easily?

these thoughts kept on running wild in my head.
and now , i felt i want band to be my first priority. i dontknow why. yes. it's dumb but i really want to excel up to a profession level in trumpet playing. i also want to take trumpet exams and go for auditions.
i want to play for opus now. i know, it might be a lil too late. but i've thought it through- i am definitely playin for opus. but but but , it all depends on the teachers , if they would approve me. might not approve due to lousy attitude.attendance. i felt i've done so much wrongs towards them. o.why am i so terrible? i remember how dissappointed mrs fong and ms tan were with me. i remember their faces. so clearly. i'm sorry. its just too late.very late. they had already lost that trust in me.what's more i could do. i cant earn back anymore... why do i regret when everything had been done?
no matter what,i'm not gona give up for trumpet is my passion.
i just dislike myself.
what a terrible me i am.

i'm shifting soon. yes.i dontknow where. i dislike the whole idea. o why. HAI. super upset now. z.z.z.z.z i just feeel like dying at this very moment. its painful. but better than being on this earth.i just want to dissappear right now.

i did nothin much today. i went to becky's house in e noon. prac trumpet.watch shows. sleep. and then went home. i really miss the warmth.. hai ..
thanks mom, for the soya milk. .....


...........................................
she's upset, i'm more upset.

i woke up really very late at 1pm. cos i think i was too tired.
chatted with some bedoknorth bandmates online. val- pig no.1 ;D yubing lil sis
then i went to nearby coffeeshop for lunch myself at 330pm. so late right ;x
then i went home to sleep.very nice rainy weather. i am so lazyyy.
and mom went out for a wedding.
went for dinner myself just now.
y.bro is sleeping now. elder bro 's not home.
i found out smt bout my y.bro through his blog.- he lost his wallet. awwh. no wonder he's feeling down. really down.

through blogs ,it really allows me know more of my brothers cos they have their own blogs! so that i can know more of their life cos we dont have the time to talk together. either one of us is not home or none of us is at home. everyone's busy with our own life ,our friends, and so on, that we lack of the communication with our parents. we didnt have the time to talk to them. and sometimes they really feel left-out. and feel so lonely that they desperately need us at home. but we just does not like to be home. to hear those naggings. yeah. parents do nag.. but still , we must spare a thought. we dont want our children to neglect us too ,yeah ?

no matter what we must love them still. even though they scold, punish, or didnt spare a thought for you,
but still they are the ONES who brought you up.

back to what i did today.. then i stayed at home online-ing. chatted with bedoknorth bandmate, mandy over the phone. my sisterr! xP
mandy more ; ]
cheryl: hee. you're a nice friend of mine! and who has the same taste as me- PINK ;p

i am going BECKKYYY 's HOUSE tomorrow to practise trumpet!! ;D



SEC4S.
PLEASE TRY TO PLAY FOR OPUS,
COS THE MAIN BAND URGENTLY NEEDS US .
AND UNTILL NOW WE ONLY HAVE 4 OR 5 PIECES READY OUT OF 12 PIECES.
ALRIGHT!!!!! ;D

MY CERT for PASSING OUT frm RWS ;p
TRUMPET SECTION presented this gift to me. how sweet of them!! ; ]
lil sistarr -yubing and me. ;D
REGENT TRUMPET SECTION ;)
bedoknorth and regent sec4 TRUMPETORS. - left to right : cat.sher.xing.me.bett
EXCOS 05 - 06 ;D with MR LIM..
GUARD OF HONOUR - SEC4S OF HOUGANG.BEDOKNORTH.REGENT
the sec2s and 1s are supposed to take photo. but we joined them in the photo. aint we thick skinnn??
3 BANDS. PLUS MR LIM AND TEACHERS. HOW BIG THE WHOLE BAND IS!
part of the tetra campers' formation..
a successful heartshape. for e formation.
all the contingents. too big to take the whole lot of us.. can u find me ? ;p
marching band ! ; )
mandy and i. ;D

HOUGANG. REGENT. BEDOKNORTH BANDS ;P

i slept at 4am last night just cos i wrote many dozens of letters and was late for this mornin's rehearsal. ;( how embarrassing.
the 3bands graduation concert cum passing out ceremony was superb.marvellous.
phantom of the opera with formations done by TETRA III campers is AWESOME.
YOU GUYS ROCK.
the masks part with sort of dance is nice. seeing all this will really touched my heart. done so much for us.
and all your hard efforts throughout the camp had been paid off.
tetra peeps.
i hope you guys will grow more maturely , and be more confident of yourself. prove to your own bands that you're leaders.maintain the band well and bring the band to greater heights. and from this camp,can see you guys are very bonded. very happy to see you all grow. [ ;

thank you bandmates.. for the wonderful things you've done for us the sec4s, graduating batch.
my sec1s really played very well for Hey Jude and What A Wonderful World. solo was nice!
and alumnus for presentin the 2 pieces to us!
mr lim was glad to receive the gifts from us,the sec4s. we gave him a grey tee with all our signatures on and laminated , and a board full of our individual sec4s photos and a message ;p
ruyu gave me a bouquet of flowers!
yvonne yeo gave me a winnie the pooh cushion, some gave me letters,

not forgetting my trumpet section. gave me a big bottle with folded stars and a card ;p *very very touched*
i gave ms tan a mickey mouse cushion,she was v shocked. ;D i gave the rest of the ppl chocolates ,cards and hugs! ;p
aww i felt so bad. cos nat was trying to look for me,she was crying, she wants me to hug her.but i walked off ;x cos later i sure cry so i scolded her for crying . so bad huurrr. x; sorry NAT !
we took many many photos. and i got to know yubing more, mandy , zhang e and cheryl! ;p
i love regent trumpet section!
and not forgettin trumpet sec4mates from bedok north. - bettina.jiaxing.shermaine.
my wonderful bandmates.conductor mr lim.teachers- ms tan,mr tan,mrs fong,ms lo.trumpet tutor-mr benny.

and i gona seek permission to play for opus.,and also the Bedergent Brass Quintet available for opus. sec4s try to make it for opus cos the main band needs us.
its so fast.that we graduate fr this cca- band. time is so short and limited. and we've got alumni band tee just now! so fast. eugene will be happy to seee us in alumni ;)



i wanna go thai with the band in dec!

in e late mornin went to lot1.to buy many many presents for tomor's pop. and then also bot for mr lim his whatever food. and i spent bout 40 odd. =/ spent alot. awww.

we had rehearsal all the way till evening, with 3 full bands. met jx,bett,sher ;p miss them alot yar.

i tink our shoulder aches alot,cos hav to stand so still.then stil got vip inspection.and marching.

everything ended at 6plus. very sad la. went all e way to lot1 buy his food and he didnt eat. =/ and also never pay me.and then i had to say nvm.

zzz. so badd.

and i helped out to draw another 40 more phantom of e opera that masks. -.-

had abit of games. before gg home. by then was 12 30am alr.

i'm so exhausted.

have to write for 30people messages on cards now.

woah. and i just done e gift i gona giv to my section.

Lord ,i pray that everything turns out well tomorrow and it will be a successful one.

i just returned from sch. the tetra band camp. yeah. had drills with hougang sec4s too. their sec4 batch is quite small la. some sec4s stayed till quite late la. i managed to talk and get to know more bout this girl from hougang,cos she was havin a gastric pain so mus stay in canteen. the display band v poor thing, back fr pulau ubin still had their formations till 930pm. and was only 3rd movement. they got 1 more movement to go. pray that they can finish their last movement tmr morning.. and just now at 10pm we even got a talk by a head from the Singapore Symphony Orchestra , Mr Chiang!! still rmbed him, durin his band xmas concert, which is NYP band, he invited the mr lim 's bands ,of kos my band too, to his concert for free. and managed to find out more bout the people behind SSO and some interesting stuffs. then we left bout 1130pm. mr lim was like . bu she de =x then he said dont think too much . lol. didnt stayover ,cos troublesome. tmr mornin got physics 2hr lesson from 9-11am. and then going lot1 buy cards to write to my section.and some others . and also buy presents for people. still unsure what to buy for mrlim ,and teachers yet. so rush. no more time left. tmr got 3 full bands comin down to rehearse till evening. so guess hav to return hm early to settle the presents and stuffs like that. and need extra cash.. aaaahhhh. pray that wont rain and nothin will screw up. okay. they even got the phantom of e opera masks. how cool is that uhh. ;p
so people u ought to go and watch okayys.
nite.

yesterday went for band.then job interview at Sheraton Hotel. wasnt successful due to my age. but i'm experienced ;] and went to watch The Omen at night with elder bro. and i spent bout 20 odd. durin the show, he just stuffed popcorn into my mouth la.and we kept on laughin. had great fun too ;p and then hung out before going hm.was eleven plus by then. and really got to know abit bout my kor. haa ;p

i was so lazy to wake up for lesson at 8am. so i skipped my English class.anyway was just an hour. slept till 11am plus. hosaiah came to my house.and my bro's still sleepin laarh. then drills practise with the sec4s then. learnt to salute yar. and then slack and see the camp tetra peeps till 5plus. went for dinner appt at Pizza Hut. bought some food back for mr tan and went to school. study. slack.chat.play. till 11pm.and jiaying was a bit ill so esther bought 100plus for her.maybe not enough salt in her body. hougang's band teacher is nice! poor mr tan is injured. and mrs fong was watchin da chang jin in staff lounge. then went home. wanted to stayover. but,tmr no lessons in sch. tetra peeps going pulau ubin tomor. ;D

tomor havin drills practise with sec4s in the noon and night, and teachin my sec1s.heard them play marchin songs. i think it must be really hard on them.to memorise so many pieces and steps for phantom.heard sec1s playin Hey Jude and What A Wonderful World. ohh.how sweet it was. the trumpet solo ;P
i miss all the band funs. i wanna be an In-Charge for next year's tetra camp. ;p i'm so excited for passin out ceremony. we gona wear WHITE GLOVES! ;O
tomorrow's the last practise . everyone,please buck up. ( ;

sometimes i really cant stand you.
you keep on disturbing me. yes . i know you disturb people.
but please ,can you have a limit
and stop calling me mushroom or whatever names you think its nice.
zzz.
i dont care actually but i really cant tolerate this kind of attitude of yours.
but i just dont like.
and this is my hairstyle.
dont compare.
i'm really irritated and frustrated already.
you are getting on my nerves.

i woke up and got muscle achessss.
yesterday's Global Day of Prayer was awesome. ;p Youth Impact really helped out alot, with the packings,arranging,carryin and so on.
havin Godchasers there was great enough. through this,we are now very much united. ;D and we had alot of fun takin photos by the river . and many other stuffs. in the bus back to cck, got to know this 2 girls who are also from the band! one's ajc band and e other 's pjc band. and one of the girl is actually my senior's cousin! how cool. and the other one is a TRUMPETOR! ;p while the other is a TBONIST, which is my previous instrument. good to see people being so devoted into music, into band.
i have a strong passion for music and i want to persue music,if ever i am given that opportunity.
then steff's dad drove PinFen and i to yewtee. we went to mac for supper. the 27 years old lady treated me mac ;p alalala~ returned home at 12am. brothers went town to watch movie till midnight, never jio me. ;(
this mornin got lessons. then i went to janny's hse,the jade, watch movie with her bro and her. quite funny.wanted to go gym ,go swimming, but too lazy . next time i guess. went home to sleep.
i finish watching SASSY GIRL CHUN XIANG korean show already! 24 episodes. ;D
just now was feelin bored, so took some photos in my room! next week no more lessons! YAYY! stayover stayover ;p midnight movies! ;p but must hav a limit, study study study.
anyway.
ALL THE BEST FOR HOUGANG/BEDOKNORTH/REGENT BANDMATES ATTENDING TETRA CAMP ;P and ALSO PHANTOM OF THE OPERA FORMATION AND NOT FORGETTIN THE REST OF THE 3 BANDS, FOR THE PERFORMANCE ON THAT NIGHT.AND ALSO THESE 3 BANDS ALUMNUS FOR THEIR PERFORMANCE!

people,please look at this:
JOINT PASSING OUT CEREMONY CUM GRADUATION CONCERT
BEDOKNORTH SYMPHONIC BAND.HOUGANG SYMPHONIC BAND.REGENT WIND SYMPHONY(my band!)
10TH JUNE , 4PM
REGENT SECONDARY SCHOOL
FREE ADMISSION

i went to watch Mission Impossible 3 yesterday at westmall! and went to play bball. = ]
o well.there isnt any room to rest even if there's a month of holiday. the most is to just relax and not work so hard.
but still have to study every night.

no more shopping, no more wastage of time already.

BUT I WANT

.......................................................................

-to attend........

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TRUMPET CLASS.

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-to go for events during ........

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SG ARTS FESTIVAL.

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-to watch my fav

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MOVIES.

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-to help out my section during

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BANDPRACTISES.

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i was late for phy this mornin for 15mins. combined class with some other classes.
had maths lesson on Probability.
then chem also combined class.
freezing cold in the range room.
went home to sleep. very tiredd.
went westmall to study. 'cos tuition is postponed.
went to the library,wanted to borrow a book. but i owed the libary money. arghh. but i didnt have a cash card to pay off the debt.
then went home watched korean show. ;D

why always break promises?supposed to go out with her tomor,and yet again and again she cant make it.
she came back to sg, but we didn't have a time to chat, to go out, to have fun.
all we did was SMS.
and then you're so busy with all your friends here.
i missed those days you know.
i'm so upset la.
bid u farewell,byee.

UPSET LAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRHHHHHHH!
wake me up when october ends.

BOOHOOHEEHAA.
its been a while since i last post.
today had CHINESE 0 level paper.
He took away all my anxiety and worries.was really very nervous initally,
and He guilded me throughout my papers.

I WANNAAA PRAISEEE YOU! ( ;

well, i wrote 4 pages long for letter writing. and 3 pages for composition.
i didnt finish checking the words i dontknow from my composition. cos i really thought too much of what to write.
paper 2 was not difficult. much easier than expected.

went to fish's place watch movie.
then went home to sleep . z z z zz z
ate dinnner.
watched korean dvds.
online till now.
chatting with mr chen. -.-

tomorrow got extra class from 8am till noon.
going watch movie tomorrow ( :

my heart is pounding very fast.
i totally have no idea why.


He planned this to happen in my life.

we left the place at night.
i saw the sadness in her eyes.
this was the very first time she looked very upset with me over this.
she doesnt wants to talk to me anymore.
she doesnt even wants to sit with me in the bus.
i knew she's very dissappointed in me, her eyes tells me so.
she lost hope in me already.
how could this happen?
i was very upset at once.
i know many things were not right,
the way i wanted.
many obstacles popping up in my path.
i knew there was so much to do now.
why didnt i set my mind there?
why didnt i focus on what i really want?
that tear didnt drop.
i didnt want myself to be sobbing the whole night.
i hide all sadness deep inside my heart.
i turn to no one.

i'm not gona talk much anymore.
i'm not gona be so crazy and enthu in school anymore.
i dont want to be the last one standing there.
i dont want to dissappoint myself anymore.

tomorrow will not be a better day.
the results will be out after 230pm.


thankyou ms koh for the gift.

today we got back our chi mock exam papers. paper1 is marked by our tr,e rest we marked ourselves.thats dumb right. and i failed my compo cos i wrote out of point. i think was too rush ba,i left exactly an hour for compo.spent too much time thinkin for letterwriting i guessed. hmm. well. i didnt do well for the paper. argh. hai. i want to achieve B3 for chi 0 level. really. i dontknow if i can. o well. i've to give everything to Him, believin that He can help me. whole day chi. so i took short naps. we had assembly. quite nice skits. went to teach sec1 drills till 4plus. saw bdn and hougang band mates in my sch,learnin the flagpole thingy for the camp. went up to range room to see how's band doing. o well. rebecca was sayin her long long story -.--

OPUS III on 28th JULY

VICTORIA CONCERT HALL

730pm

$10/$15

support my band oKIES?

((:

went tuition at gombak. so went pass bukitgombak CC. went to see tuition chi tr there. anyway she's still there! she taught me since pri 4-6 on chi. o well. gave her a big hug. cos i lost contact wit her for four years already! imagine u meeting yr tr for many yrs. and exchanged no. she even intro me to her class cos she 's havin lesson w pri6 students. and we chatted quite a while. yeap. i miss her ! LUO LAO SHI ;p i rmbed she always call me HEI GU NIANG. cos i'm dark. and used to send me,the only student home after tuition till 10pm man. so so nice right. then e

rest of e students will jealous. ;p and always buy sweets and chocolates for me.

i'm tired.

tomor havin chi mock exam again.

i got scolded again.

i dont think ms koh is meeting tonight again.

CHARCOAL! ;p
snow and charcoal!

today i had chi mock exam paper. superslack. we didnt even separate our tables. and durin the listening compre, all of us went to range room and no tables man. so its like, we sat together w our friends. dumb right.how to prepare for 0s. and everything ended at 115pm. we walked out of class la.and went off. actually still got lessons de,but what's the point?? when there's already no maths lessons instead chi exams the wholeday. we also skipped eng oral. went to get hammies-
CHARCOAL AND SNOW ;p
slept till 530pm. feelin very pain in my head.. taken dinner already. hammies are sleeping now.
am havin AMATHS tuition tomor at westmall i guess so in the evening. just know that tomor need to teach sec1 drills in the noon. marching.turning.sizing command.and so on. while the rest have combine with mrlim. i want to hear the band one day!
so slack. tomorrow gona go through chinese papers WHOLE DAY. well, we need not bring any books. -.= got sch like no school la.



and i, am desperate for You.
and i, i'm lost without You.

the CHAMPIONS after BIGWALK ;p
one of the WALKER,- done by sentosa. promoting balloon hats festival in june ;p
the group of us. the lady in black is our form teacher, ms jane ;p so on right. 11 of us.
the girls. whahah.



the day at town!
daz-jan-khiang nannni nannnii pooooo poooo
pastamania. my spagetti is the best! ;p i want to go pastamania again!!
FeliciaAudreyDazireeStephanieJanice
at cineyleisure. ;p

i think stephanie fiish and i were appreciating the nice designs. while drey was searchin for smt in her bag. o.O

went Big Walk this mornin with some of my classmates. we met up like 6am? -.= so so early. we walked only 5KM instead of 10KM. ! =x and walked to Suntec for breakfast. shopped around., then took train back. dozed off .was feelin VERY LETHARGIC. met ade at lot1. went church together. bible study was great. then went to beauty world for lunch with jielong,kohtee and meiyan. took bus home. slept for 2hours only. i didnt went for work. i felt very bad man, cos siying already promised captain that i will come today. they needed people like ME ;p and there's weddin function today. arghh. so sorry so sorry. i gona be dead the next time i go there. x= but was really super tired la. i'm feelin tired now already. will sleep early but dontknow i will?

tomor whole day CHINESE MOCK EXAM and must bring dictionary for approval for usage for 0level paper.

oh weell.

its all bout YOUths!

i slept at 2am yesterday, watched some tv programme with dylan.

and woke up 730am and went for band. was in the music room durin sec1s combine with ms loh. was there to hear them. they played What A Wonderful World. my juniors are improvin, noel and hock huey's solo is SUPERB! hoho- i am happy for them. and also for 2nd trumpetors =D and overall, was not bad. but i feel that the sec1s lack of support from seniors' helps. that why their very fundamentals not there yet though they know how to play. maybe like they know what is dotted crotchet but cannot play to the exact value. sectionals with benny. seniors were focusing on Danse Diabolique and dances pieces. taught my juniors. and then i went to teach horn sec1s,. i talked to Sky yeap,finally i got the chance to talk to him. talk to him bout church and music theory which he didnt understand.oh no, his seniors didnt teach him bout key signatures and stuffs like that. taught the eupho sec1 girl too. i realised that seniors didnt spend much time with juniors,lack of communication and bonding which is very terrible that's happening in my band. and i am glad to see 90% of the sec1s bringing instruments home,even for those very HUGE instru like TUBA. am upset that seniors are not showing good example. my trumpet is already passed down to NATHASHA, so must take good care of that trumpet ;D

went to church later on. sky cant go last min. yaukun also.

the sermon was about emotions.. i thank God that i learnt and realised so much now. i might have been a really nasty person to some people in church baa. i allow my feelings to take control of me. i vent my anger or hate people who did somethings which i dislike.i always fear many things and let fear makes me feel very very afraid of anything. this was very very wrong of me. and i brought people nothing but troubles and burdens.

i dont want to trouble anyone already,.

i feel really terrible bout myself.

sorry people. i think i brought many problems to you people already.

CLUELESS <3>
mr lim knew that you n cat not playing
# CLUELESS <3>
he v shock
# CLUELESS <3>
he was like
# CLUELESS <3>
" HUH. MY TWO TRUMPETERS NOT PLAYING?!!!!!"
# CLUELESS <3>
then he silence.........................................................
# CLUELESS <3>
then he "ok lor."
# CLUELESS <3>
you sad, he oso sad
# CLUELESS <3>
yuting n sean oso out of opus
# CLUELESS <3>
YOU KNOW NOW OUR S4S ONLY GOT SEVEN PLAYING FOR OPUS.
# CLUELESS <3>
SEVEN ):
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
WHICH 7
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
HAI
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
i dontknow
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
i want to play foir opus, but i think n think. 3 times a week pracs, i canot even handle studies how to includ performance. n i think n think. i can go watc my band perform w fads
# CLUELESS <3>
me, charles, jordan, dor, aileen, amy, kexin
# CLUELESS <3>
aileen and amy oso want to leave already
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
why?
# CLUELESS <3>
zeting oso
# CLUELESS <3>
zeting is in i mean
# CLUELESS <3 CLICK FIVE- says:
aileen and amy i dont know why
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
oh, zeting in? good
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
then now band strength can includ the sec1s mah
# CLUELESS <3>
dunno. i feel its very silly that we give up a concert which is in july, actually we shud be thankful its not august or sept which clashes with prelim
# CLUELESS <3>
i suspect mr lim oso maybe put july so that all the s4s can play
/i dont know anything, stop questioning,.i'm getting confuse. i miss this man. ; ( says:
he put there on purpose cos my bday leh
# CLUELESS <3>
-.-
CLUELESS <3>
mr lim told yuting n sean something when they told him they wanted to pull out
# CLUELESS <3>
he said, " if you think pulling out of opus will make your grades better, you'll have to think twice"

this was the chat between me and rebecca.well what can i say? i'm not prepared to play for OPUS,really. i'm not confident,neither does the band. and i feel that now i alr cant cope with studies cos i am not consistent. i dont like to study,, . whaha. but yesterday mr heng told me my chemistry is improving. ;D which really brightens up my dull day. ok. my trumpet's gone!! i'm givin it to MY SEC1 JUNIOR. !! why so fast!! tomor must tell them how to take care of trumpets PROPERLY. and benny's comin tomorrow for trumpet class! yeahh! and i really want to hear my juniors tomorrow. i'm excited bout going band tomorrow. and to teach the sec2s drills. hear the main band for combine if there's . tomorrow got alumni band too. ;D gona wake up very early tomorrow.
back to what i did today. ,
no school today. and i woke up so early, 930am -.-- cos they wanna meet out early today. we met at 1030am , went town. i bought a belt at far east which is bronze in color, drey bot the same as me. always copy me =/ then we went to eat at Pastamania . 7 of US =D my kor wanted to come, but he was sleepin at home! i met my dad at cineyleisure to get some money from him. he asked me go get ATM card so will be easier to transfer me money. ;D then we went taka shop. shopping always make me broke. so i didnt want to enter shops. then i went home. the rest went Marina Sq for Bowling. i wanted to go,cos they were indecisive wher to go. i already said i wanna go museum. z.z.z so i went home to SLEEP.!! slept till night. went downstairs to buy dinner.
supposed to meet MS KOH later. but, she last min had to go clubbing with friends. so so hip -.- and cool la ! this teacher rock ;] so meetin her next week. bored at home. yes. i cannot wait for BIG WALK on this comin SUNDAY! ;p

FELICIA.AUDREY.DAZIREE // 12MAY SENTOSA . stephanie did not comeee .
remember the old d4rliNZ ? yeap. and my korr. in school yarp. acting cool laaa.
2 years ago we went sentosa. the good old memoriesss ;D
this is my class, and my group- FADS. we were previously called d4rliNz. us with math tr, Ms Teo. i looked very cute right. ;D
when we were much youngerrr. ohh. this is childishh -=.--
supporters who came to support me durin my concert ;p
after sports day. i remember this bunch of people. funny guys who graduated already. crazy girlswho are sec4s now in sch.. i miss all of u.
after cross country ,taken 2years ago too. the lady in red, is CHANTELLE. ms koh yarp. my bestie aka teacher .wahhaha =D
this was the concert with bedoknorth - Music from our Hearts. at CPCC =p my section, i love you guys man! we were doing some gimmicks for Hawaii-5 0 and turned out likethat.

HAPPY BDAY DARYL KORRRRRRR! ;D

i havent got yr present and STOP askin can?! ;]

durin cme lesson, ms ong was talkin bout the key points of Marriage. class seating arrangment changed. i'm sitting with sean and yiterk. behind me is FASJ. we had PE. for 3weeks we didnt had pe, and now it felt so weird. i played captain ball,volleyball,badminton. then so bored, i went to the canteen to sleep! so tiredd. it felt like there's no lessons.

durin chinese lessons, 5 chinese classes went to rifle range.combined chinese class! so so cool. but then i felt asleep laa. mdm zhao was talkin to us bout CHINESE 0 LEVEL. Okay. next MON and WED are Mock Examinations in the school hall. which means papers 1,2 and 3 from 8am-130pm. so no lessons. and on TUES and THURS are going through the papers. Mon must bring chi dict to be approved by examiners. o.O okay. everything seems so cool huh. but in fact we will miss out alot for maths and amaths. and Friday will resume lessons as per normal. and the following monday Chinese 0 level. today we were totally crazy in sch! cos last day of this week?
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
durin physics we did practicals. i love practicals. crazy fadsj. mad people. screamming.yelling.laughing super loud. nanniinnaniii poo poooo.
just took dinner and taken my nap. kor woke me up, asked me to lend him 10bucks. guessed what i thought? i thought i was late for school laaa!! -.-" was in my dreams man. he owed ME 30 bucks already!! -.-" tomorrow gona meet my dad to get money from him. i broke alr. i spent 40bucks this weekk. i watched movie.thats why. i want to watch DAVINCICODE.its out today. maybe watching alone? i dont think people wanna watch with me except jiayao.! haha! he asked me want to watch. he even asked me want to go National JC Open House on sat! and Hock Leong asked me go trekking tomorrow! so many dates =x woops. haha. what are classmates for then?? i love them! =D YEAH. 3 MOREdays to BIG WALK! so so cool to go with so many classmates TOGETHER. and my form teacher MS JANE is going too! so so cool!
where should i go tomorrow? ? ? ? ?

i know. i dont know. i dont want to question why. i'm afraid out there.

these words hurt me.

HAMHAM IS DEAD. 16may06

she was motionless there,sleep in her death.

life is just like that. one moment you might be laughing.one moment you might be crying. there's always the Ups and Downs. and you wont know what will happen next. *upsets*

today we reported to school at sgpoly at 815am. we got duties to do.so we sat jus behind the speakers and teachers' seats. didnt sit with fadsj and they even booked a seat for me =( i love the speaker, Mr Perkins from Republic Poly. the way he speaks really can capture our attention and very funny. i love the talk by Nanyang Poly regarding nursing.,. and am motivated by Penny Tan's talk. in fact she was the first student in sg to enter university after her medical science course. then the whole talk ended around 3pm includin the tour in SP. the emcee ,amin was good!actually fads going to Jurong Point. but then so last min,they backed out , left me in the train.
why always like that? i felt really left out by so many people in my school now.i felt that i hav no friends now. i dont hang out with them anymore. i feel what really friends are. , are the people in my church. what's more, the conversations in school with friends are all bout the world,the guys,the trends, the rumours and every other things. i dont want to be influenced by the world. i want to be a good testimony!
i took train to BoonLay, wanted to go JP but i knew i will spend money again. so i took train to jurong to change train.but i forgot so took till clementi. lol. and then to cck. went to buy drink and eat junk food before headin home.

tomorrow lessons' as usual =(
tomorrow got band SEC4s drills practise session with zeting!whaha.he's so BIG now! hopefully all of us turn up yeah.

MS KOH'S BACK FROM CHINA FOR 4 MONTHS THERE! i miss her. i talked to her over the phone once she touched down. i missed her voice. i gona meet up with her very soon.

ILOVEYOU ;p

school seems bored today.i sleep and sleep. there's no lessons. free time all the way. at 1130am till 230pm, checked through ALL the papers! that's crazy.in a day's time. arghh. english markin scheme is so so strict,although i passed.i dont like. i got 18 for compo, 17 for letterwriting. summary and compre is terrible laa.think lotsa of people failed that section. and also chinese compre section markin is so so strict! i scored so little. =( i dislike my marks,i shall practise more on MATHS AND AMATHS noww. after school i went to MARINA SQUARE with my bandmate. passed by ade's SANDWICH SHOP. i watched Jasmine Women. i love ZHANG ZIYI,she's so so pretty! returned home bout 730pm. i ate maggie mee for dinner.drank cranberry+black currant drink.so healthy! =p my hamham is dying already. arghh.someone help her can can. lack of nutritions, so so skinny now. how how howw!! maybe too lonely, .

pray hard for my hamham. i want HER to survive! she's so completely different now. the way she sleeps. ,she stands on 2 feets, and lean against the wall.

TOMORROW REPORTING TO SCHOOL AT SP. and then i got duty to help the teachers to organise this and that.,so must report at 730am. if not i can reach there at 815am. ;]

BIG WALK 21st MAY.
FELICIA's BDAY 28 MAY.
chinese 0level paper 29th MAY.

this mornin i woke up to sweep and mop the floor. =p i'm doing smt for my mom! took cab with stef and meiyan to church for biblestudy. book of Judges is interesting! then cellgroup mates went to eat prata opp. church. i love kampong fried rice! took bus to panjang resevoir. just went there to stroll, and then walked to panjang plaza. lol. we ate icecream at cafe cartel! VIKING ROCK! whaha. 10 scoops of chocolate and vanilla and rockss ;] went to see dogs and hamsters! i want to buy nice nice food for my hamham at that shop, but then i spent finish my money already. i want to buy CHOCOLATE DROP for hamham! recently neglected her alot, 'cos i so busy, no time to bring her out to stroll and sayang her =( sorry hamham! i was late for work, i reported at 650pm =x supposed to be 630pm. so i didnt get to do the walk-in with the dish as there's weddin function. siying got to do it la,! i was supposed to be the one pourin hot water into the areas for the dry ice so got smoke,. but then i was busy. arghh. my job kept on changing. first was incharge of VIP room, then changed to bartender. i love to pour beer!! cos of e way u hav to pull down the handle, and slant the jars so there wont be much bubble. yeah. today 's pay was an hour $7. then manager asked me can type up my hair at the side, i said cannot.lol. she said orh,yr style right,so messy.lol. then so many of the waitress said i so dark,teased me =/ i wasnt workin with the devil, so i ignored.heh. ;D i dont llike the people workin in the kitchen.so rude.so vulgar.zzz. then i went yewtee 7-11 bought cheesecake as mother;s day gift for my mom. she jus fell asleep, so kor woke her up.and i gave to her. =p dylan's sick again. i just had dinner,. want to sleep soon. tomorrow i gona get my results. =( i dont want to knowww.
i spent bout 80bucks this week.! always anyhow spending/ humphs! i want to saveeee.

i went bedoknorth so early in the mornin today. and surprisingly,the trip took me less than an hour to reach bedok. i miss the people over there.i passed yonglin the SAFband cd recordin and the trumpet recordin cd. the security guard wanted me to wrote my name on the list cos i was an outsider. but then was so coincidence that the band teacher was there, he told the guard that i was from REGENT WIND SYMPHONY. oo, he knows me? so cool la.there's so many people and yet he rmbs me although i didnt talk to him before.maybe was my skin color. =p and i saw our thai-drills-instructor, MR CHAKRIT.!! i missed him and he remembers me! then iwent to the shop opp. the sch for breakfast. and i met shulin later onn. think she's going to her sch or smt. went church with liying.and the whole trip fr bedok to church took us 1hr10mins.

i love the sermon today,
i love every sermon,
i love going church,
i love my sisters and brothers!!

we celebrated kohtee,dris,cheryl and jielong's bday!and then played games after dinner.heh.
i invited 5 friends to church today.but they gave me excuses. pray that they will come next sat. i also want to invite fadsj to church even though they are catholics. i want to reach out to more people, even online friends or sch mates. or bandmates fr other schools.

something we shared durin cg game- some things which people don't know bout me :
1. my bday falls on a saturday22july.
2. my form teacher 's a christian.
3. my index no. is 12.
4. i like to watch movies alone.
5. i like to cycle to my friend's place at bukit panjang.

i got work tomorrow. hopefully i can dont attend the mornin shift and go for bible study!

sentosa12may. the eight of us. darren.felicia.audrey.wenyan.daziree.jude.zhuofeng.eric
i love them! stephanie's missing...
audreyyy and dazzz =p
fishyyy and dazzz
zhuofeng and me. i love dark chocolate maltesers!

i woke up so early today.-7am. we went for breakfast and took 188 to harbourfront. sentosasentosaSENTOSAAA! we played volleyball and frisbee and a very stupid game which makes our feets painful man. went swimming and things like that. i dislike sea salt water though. i got sun burnt, on my body and faceee. zhuofeng and eric caught crabs,fishes! they even saw octupus near the rocks there. oawwwh. we left there at 4 plus. and then whatt, we bathe in the outdoor bathing area in the ladies' toilet. -.-" went harbourfront shopping centre for dinner. then i went cityhall myself, walked around. and went home.


at times , i just want to be with You alone.
sometimes i dont understand why situations are happening in this way,
but i know , You make the situations according to Your way.
i know i have You.
i want to endure to see Your Smile at the end of the finishing line.

He's there for me, RELY ON HIS STRENGTH!

i took poapaper1 today.ms jane was askin me, "why you still come for this paper when you didnt even turn up for paper2?" "orh,i dont want to see zero in my report card." "anyway you've alr got a zero already." "orh,can i leave now?" "no,you still sit for the paper since you are already here." -.--- i still took the paper,after 10mins i slept. and can see many people dozing offf already. 'cos its like, what?poa paper?! arghh.many people hated that sub. my mom bought me something from thai! i love the necklace heartshape ! bwahha. and i took a cab to sch after i showered at home. band exco meetin with alumnus. missing my band room so much. thefeeling is so nice there. you got the synethizer , the piano, the instruments, the scores, the yellow-painted storeroom, the lovelybandmates there. [= i miss band larhh! i miss my excos and i realised i've drifted away from them.. after i became a christian.. things have changed.
i miss: JORDAN.CHARLES.REBECCA.SIYING.DORORIN.SUHAILA.ZHENJUN.GANGYUAN.YUTING.ZETING.SEAN! 11 excos!
i gona arrange for outing together with MR LIM too!
and had some discussions with esther too.
i just know something interesting! MrChen's brother is a cellgroup leader in a church!!! this is totally cool.the world is small and many christians are out there! bwahah. everyone must share with friends bout HIM ok! share gospels and invite your friends!!
i shared the gospel online with 2 of my pri-sch mate- Kenneth and Amanda,and my junior- Vivian. Kenneth might be attendin church this sat.he sounded interested! Vivian might be comin this saturday too! Praise the Lord!i also invited Mr Chen to church! =p i want to reach out to more and more people from everywhere.- from band to ex pri schmates.
i went siying's house. we rented this korean show- Cool Guy. then i went for discipleship with ade. i learnt something today. bout the Holy Spirit thats living in me now. bwahah. must know how to be MORE SENSITIVE. i talked to my mom just now.bout my future.bout my work. yea yea. i gona buy a pressie for my mom on mother's day. what should i buy??

heard that my elder bro lost 5kg. lol.! good for him! cos there's nothin to eat at home and he's alwayss eating eggs!
i gonna go SENTOSA TOMORROW. SENTOSALIVE!! here i come bwhahha =)
WHAHAHA SUN TANN!! I WANNA BE BLACK BLACK BLACK.. and chao taaaa dazzzzzz.
i gona wake up super super early tomorrow. and gona sleep in the train. actually we intended to catch first train 530am. but too too early. lol.!i love to go the extremes!
dylan's not comin home tonight. daryl wont be home too. ooo. always PS ME! nvm,i got HIM with me!
i want to watch princess diaries and 3men on the computer later. i got to know HOW TO ENJOY after exams.
i cant wait for church! and sermon! hamham is getting cuteerrrr ! just like me OK!

geog paper today. i didnt study on MALAYSIA attractions. !! and cost me 10marks. *sighs* i studied everything bout singapore,cos i thought it might come out.its always like that. but instead MALAYSIA came out. i went home then, watched SCARY MOVIE 4 and FUN WITH DICK AND JANE with eric!! i fell asleep. scary movie 4 was super hilarious. wanted to go causeway point alone,to get mskoh's pressie., but in the end i didnt go 'cos of my laziness. i went to fish's house. watched geographic channel. i love to watch the way animals react. muahha. then i slept for an hour with the soothing music on. lol. while darren and fish were studyin larhhhs. went dinner together with her parents at yew tee. i treated her father chee cheong fun! =P went fish's house hang around before i went home. this was how i spent my day after examinations . zz. its' so boring. tomorrow havin POA paper1. multiply choices. i gona shade A,B , C and D in sequence and sleep zzzzzzzzzzz..

no more freedom liao arh. zz
why. i dislike this. can you please understand?? ;/
do i havee to?
all for HIM.

i love my BROTHER DARYL YI JIE CANNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! =]]

finally can blog.there was some errors just now. Hmm.today i had Maths paper1 and Chemistry paper2.muahah. maths was definitely EASIER than paper2.i wasted fewmarks.cos i cant rmb how to do! arghh- chemistry paper2 was easier than physics paper larhhs. i went home watched Stuart Little 2.then dylan's friends came.so noisy. i went to sleep then. slept till 7pm! *faints* 5hours of nap. yet no one woke me up. discipleship was postponed due to some reasons. i went yewtee to study for geog. i didnt had dinner today larhh. i ate junk food! i think i gona sleep very late tonight. and dylan went hardrock cafe with dad for dinner! -_-" it was a nice chat with ms koh online. took photos with daryllll. lol. i gona study for mapreadin,manufacturing and tourism plus case studies.. i love tourism!! pray that it will be a easier paper. i want to watch Mission Impossible 3 with ms kohhhh! i miss her alot alot alot alot alot alot alot and ALOTS !!! i also want to go Kbox, take neoprints, dinner, shopping with her CAn can can!! =] once she's back frm china which is next tuesdayyyy =]] miss you like crazyyyy can?? yeahhiee! this week i got 50bucks!!wooohoo-,,



i also miss GODCHASERS!! !!




we needed You, i 'll go, to the ends of the earth for You.

secFOURS- devotees =p
ERIC AND ME! muahah. bestie guy-friend =p
the concert hall durin rehearsal. some of the sec4s last performance.

REGENT BRASS ENSEMBLE =p suhaila-yvonne-gangyuan-jordan-charles-catherine-daziree

i had MATHSpaper2 today. dumb-est paper i've came across.so many human errors found.and wasted so much of our precious time,tellin us this mistake that mistake. and then there's still qns whereby the answer was alr given in the question. so the teacher decided to give that free mark away. few mins later another teacher changed the qns! hello it was only a mark and they are so so stingy -.- whoa piang. and they gave us extra 5mins to complete the paper.where got such a thing! and the hall is super hot and stuffy =/ i feel i can do the questions but they're thinkin qns,very time-consuming.got a feeling i wont do well ): then i went cycling all the way till teck whye around Pioneer JC area and cycled back to yewtee. wahha.how fun it is to go cycling alone. i missed triathlon alot =p i just studied with jiayao and eric. and in order to motivate one another, we played this game whereby each of us will post a chemistryqns. who can answer will score a point.at the end see who will score the most.how cool right? whaha. and then we watched tv. eric left my house bout 12am. pray for tomorrow's paper to be easy. havin maths paper1 and chemistry paper2. yeah! havin my last paper on wednesday. must still continue to constantly revise. okay. i'm having band tetra meeting on thursday. i wanna go down to bedoknorth and meet my friends there man. i miss all of them larhhs! and so fast saturday is comin- hoho- church! =p

i love my blog!

woohooyippieyaya. blog is done. thanks to fidahhhh ;D always doing skins.i really love the blog and everything. including my cute face =p i woke up at 11am. went sakae sushi with my some of my relatives at westmall. so so full larh. i miss cheyanneeee! [: saw joshua and shaun,inotstupid2. i bought color socks! we took cab home cos dad's car under repair. slept till night and went to yewetee to study. ate mac for dinner! i bought rojak for myself! muwahha.gona eat it later. am havin maths paper 2 tomorrow. pray that it will be an easy paper. gona revise soon. i wanna go swimming after examinations.



we all have to go through this.

a busy week loaded with examinations. yesterday i had SS and POA paper but i skipped POA paper. o.O for SS, i only studied abit. i love the section A on those skills needed to apply for the different parts of the qns. for sect B,i think i gona fail la. and i had 3.5 hours of nap at home! lazy bum right? ;p dad bought dinner for us, went to lot1 meet peng to buy some stuffs at popular. and then we got ktv larh!! did those bday thingy till very late. bout 3am plus lorh. i cant sleep yesterday night, cos i drank cold bottled coffee. dad bought like. 2 big bottles of coke, 3 small bottles of lemon tea,peach tea,lychee tea and 3 small bottles of coffee. so cool right. wahhaa. i couldnt sleep last night. i think i fell asleep bout 5am plus larh.
YEAHHH. ! today church!! i love the service today!! for everything Past Daniel had said makes alot alot of sense =) i think he talked too fast until i cant catch some of the notes. i love today's icebreaker games!! the good thing was we did not need to introduce ourselves. but was bad in the other way,cos there wasnt any newcomers too. and can see our cg's attendance was very poor today. some regent people didnt come,'cos of examinations., stupid excuses. and going to church is only ONCE a week larh. unless its parental objections norh. i love the POISON CHAIR game,although it was dangerous.wahha.really enjoyed alot. must thanks hester also,every week will bring snacks for our cg.how sweet of her! we also celebrated WanPing's belated bday in church. was like a surprise for her.yeaps. and i bought her a hp asses. with her birthdate on.then most of us went to dris' house for her bday party yeap. and i;m really glad to see so many of the band alumnus.,cos is like very very logn dint get to see them. =p i miss them. especially my trumpet section alumnus- kewei and lionel =P whatt. both of them kept on FORCING and THREATENING me to go to their NP CONCERT on 20th May norh. 6bucks. see,helpin u to advertise =p lionel told me what,he's playin bugler's holiday with 2 other trumpetors. IF he really play, i sure go and SUPPORT him alr! that piece is like so so much endurance is needed especially for first part.whaha. come to talk bout all this, i must really work on my fundamentals already.. if not i'll be lousy in my playing. anyway, poly's band slack and very relax. haha. maybe will join when i'm in poly. o.O
i'm homealone. i gona sleep soon. its already like 3am. woo.time flies. and the weather is soooooo nice !! tomorrow gona study Maths =] no bible study tomorrow =(

NO MORE WISHLISTS.


today 's physics paper was too difficult to imagine! aww.i gona fail. ;/ amaths paper,we got 2.5 hours.how long was it! and,it sucks BIGTIME. formulaes given,but where can it apply to. for what i know,i gona fail too. ;( looked for VP and talked to her bout dropping POA.she approved. i need a parent's letter too. and then i went cycling around my house area alone. just to get some exercise,i'm getting lazier and fatter,'cos of studies,that i always sit,eat,revise. o.O supposed to meet debra for a movie or smt but,she backed out last min ;( was very upset then,cos i alr walked to yewtee mrt station alr. and then i walked back,. supposed to dine at Pastamania with daryl,so we asked dylan to join along. and then we asked my dad.haha.so ended out to be dinner. dad brought us to hard rock cafe instead, cos of dylan. he's so childish,kept on yeking. aww.my dad got friends there. dinner was pretty awesome.i ate a burger and the onion rings were huge! we were totally too full to eat the brownies sundae. i love the icecream! we met Adrain Pang,the mediacorp star and his family there,celebratin his son's bday. and then at 930pm-1am they had the Salsa dance. my dad asked me go learn lar -.- it was pretty cool i guessed so. just returned home. tomorrow got social studies paper and POA paper 2. i gona sleep throughout the whole POA paper man. ,or even leave. let's see how. zz. this week's ending soon. HOORAY ;p
aww. supposed to meet chantelle's bro today for passin the jellies to his mom but was out.so meetin him tmr instead. hope that tmr can go dinner with him and her. wahhaha. gona study tmr nite for chemis and maths.

today i had chinese paper in the school hall. - Paper 1, 2 and 3.
i wrote 2 pages for composition and letter writing. i remember Paper 2, i didnt have time to finish my paper, left half an hour for Comprehension writing and comprehension multiply choices. i was like..very very nervous.what if i leave out one page of my answer sheet blank?? but,God was there to guild me,allow me to complete my paper on time and i even have extra 5mins to check my answers. i wanna SHOUT AND PRAISE YOU!! whahaa =] i'm so delighted.
okays. then i slept for 3hours at home.so so tired. and cooked my own dinner already.made some jellies again! met chantelle's bro to pass him dvds. i gona go study with jiayao and fadz already. everyday my papers end at noon =(

i went out to study and then somehow,

i got the urge to return home.
i felt very negative today.




sighs*
something's bothering me too much.

i dont want to be bothered by this world!

today i woke up at 11am and watched tv with siying cheryl and becky.dad brought me and bros to Yum Cha with my grandma for dim sum! and then my grandma gave us money. o.O then went drey's house to study till 9plus. ate at mac with her. went to fish's house for study, but then i went home shortly after. so dumb. zzz.fed up with this person but i should not bear grudges. i cant study when i reached home. very tired. home always gives me the feeling of sleeping. there's simply nothing other than sleep. *sighs* now's already 1am.

i was very upset just now. she's returning soon. then what wil happen between us and dad? i guessed we cant even meet him for lunch or dinner appt already. hai.. i really will miss so many things now. and then what will happen to us once she comes back? everything will be in a chaos again. and then i wont be able to concentrate on my revision for exams now. and then she will be complainin whole day and everyday. i cant take it lar. i 'm turning crazy soon. very upsetting. why caused so much probs? it's behind Satan's evil plans, i knew it all along.

tomorrow 8am shall go out and study.