MICKey and sokwEn 

me// on e rooftop. cute ba 

3 of us//  

honGminG n mEngyi 

meNgyi anD i  

listening to stairways to heaven,that korea drama series., e song is so sad.

i wonder, what the hell was i born and bring into this world?

i hated so many things,

i hated my life, especially.

i hated the way i'm livin right now.

it just dont rock, as in sucks. awww.

but i just cant do anything.

a sense of terror and darkness right in my eye.

i'm feeling painful, real pain.

just some kind of feelings.

i'm utterly dissappointed today.

with my trumpet section.

am i that demanding??

i'm really not up to te expectation of being a section leader.

why cant they just,, memorise e scales, play loud, still so shy bout playing out,

dont ask qns, practise their etudes.??

and what in e world are they given their own cornet (for te whole yr in this sec life) ,

their own tone&technique, symphonic books for?

arent they wasting their own precious time and money ??

i'm just so curious to know why dont they practise?

they might as well, just join librarian , arrange e books and stuffs like that.

isnt that much simpler?

my juniors still are not coping well.

they cant play scales well other than Cmajor.

so dissappointed.,

this is not te first time.,

its been e dont know what times.

i'm been really patient.

i think its time to set some punishments so that they will do their work.

its just te same as sch work.

listen to tr, do yr work and hand up to tr.

hai_

nothing can express how i am feeling right now.

as a senior,

i should really talk to them more.

talked to them like. umpteen times.

many things just happened.

but i'm really glad, that i did my AMaths hw which is supposed to hand up next mon and clarify my doubts w ms jane ong.

i'm awake finally,,

wasting my 8months as sec3.

to now study hard.

commontest is just next week,

i gona score well.

;)

i have faith in myself!!

yesterday dont intend to go out but to stay at home to revise.

but,, ard 2plus, classmates asked me go watch fireworks.

was so lazyy to go out.

went meet them,,

guessed whadd?

i was wearing red tee w white bottom. cool rite.?? sg's bday man.

so crowded at jurong east.

took rides in e tankers. whahaha!!

and wanted to try out for bungee jump but so long queue.

really v crowded.

there was a big screen, screening national day parade.

dined at my fav jap fastfood. ;p

then kept on screaming.

saw fireworks. first time. i was amazed. ;p

so beautiful.

if only i watched with him..

we waited by e roadside for an hour plus, just for e tankers.

omg, it was totally cool.

got to see different tankers..

and can hear them shooting their guns but no bullets lar.

very loud.

lol.

we passed by IMM, bot some snaacks to eat in 188 Bus.

went home myself, returned at 1130pm,,

was very late.

and scary,, cos of e festival-

slept early,12plus.

today went Bugis with mom.

err. was alright.

didnt get to buy anything.

ate takopachi for dinner.

not hungry.

i hate takopachi.

it sucks.

tmr havin physics test.-.

lau pa sat performance was overr.

10 pieces at one shot, believe it or not.

lips was tired,, nevertheless still tried my best.

but didnt hit e highnotes for merry widow, e Presto part.

i was angry w myself initially.

hai_ i'm dissappointed with myself for pieces like Highlights and Starlight.

blue ridge saga solo was alright,i guessed.

there was an encore piece, which i was alr super tired.

made in sg, e top As are killing me, and 1 per part. ;/

end of concert, received sweets n chocos from bdn bandmates..

took photos.

met mr heng,he was so supportive that hecame. i was shocked.

bot a drink only, had e 2bucks coupon.

in e bus, havoc. brasses rock!!

hate dat teacher. zz.

had supper w becky,zeting,charles,jun,minfang,dor,yvon,yoklian,aileen,amy and some sec4s.

only bot mushroom soup at 7-11.

mom came to fetch me,

returned hm 1230am.

tired_

sunday mornin went church w fesh,drey. met steff n her sis bro.

trying to get used to it ba.

then we went west mall,

janice was waiting for us ther.

we bot packed Burger King meals.

and went to her condo,The Jade which was just besides mrtstation.

and fr her rm , we kept on shoutin at e ppl at e station. lol. we r maddies.

she got so many games lor, and we worked on our cmeproject.

after tt, steff n dreyy left.

we went to play tennis.

we r craazy, lol. fesh shot e ball to e outside of e condo. omg.

then went swimming ..

took photos too.

left at 5plus.

returned home.

ard 9pm,went dinner w mom n dad at Adam road food centre.

love the sting rays there ;p

returned hm at 1030pm le.

omg, our school national day was so boring-

orbiang,,

had my t signed by alot of ppl- lol.

went town w bandmates. at 1plus.

was bored,

took photos,,

then went borders c music bks.

so cool,

and listen to some bandmusics..

went to SJI parade.

was cool. it seems like NDP.,

left there at 6plus to meet someone at town .

meet e rest back ,, took 190 bus.

went lot1 for dinner, Food Culture.

had korean meal!!!

went to meet my mom n bro then, shopped ard lot1 but shops closed alr.

took cab back home, feelin super tired. slept at 12plus.

___

what a great tuess. had good sleep but not enough. wahaha

dad woke me up, supposed to go cousin's hse. but didnt go.

stayed at hm watched some cartoons. ;p

wentto meet mom forlunch,,

and now here,online.

no one home exceptme n mom.

goin watch fireworks w friends later ;p

wad tiring sch days..

weekdays seldom online now.

so dont get to blog often.

so sorrie ppl.

am playin game w feng online now-

been busy, with band. and studies.

had lotsa tests.

today had chi test, ytd had poa test, 2 days ago had phy quiz..

had studyin hard.,, trying to.

3 days ago, wed.

aftr assembly went hm took my certs.

then went back sch for extra lessons.

at 430pm left w thomas to Lavender.

need to make my Ic and he accompanied me.

he's so nice, ;p thats why he;s my best bud.

reached there bout 450pm and they closed like at 5pm.

e lady was so nice to let me take my photo and make Ic.

e photo suks. argh-

then ate at beach road, chatted w thomas, regardin many of band stuffs ;p

which he also enjoyed larr.

then shopped ard.

took bus back to BukitBatok.

which was a 3 hrs ride back. omg.

reached bukitbatok at like, 9 pm.

shopped at west mall. lol_

then he pei me home lor. so tired. , just to make a Ic.

yesterday supposed to hav oral.

and then guys start first.

and girls waited lor.

omg, waited for 3 hrs.

and that 3 hrs, was fun.fun.fun.

mengyi and i were havoc in e class.

we were like, playing.

running in e class playin catching ;/

played twister.

played some handgames.

even played horse ridin games..

omg.

you wont believe it .

and we took e front of e class to be e stage,so she was like singin and dancin plus her crazy hairstyle.

waited fr 230pm to 500pm,

and then mr zahed came in and said bandmembers need to go for prac.

so mengyi and i went for band while phylis took oral.

returned home bout 8pm, just like today.

cooked maggie mee for myself just nw.

havent iron my band uniform for tmr's concert.

performance @

LAU PA SAT

7pm- 8pm

;)

go support!!

am practising v hard man. for e 10pieces.

gosh, i will run out of air .

and how am i gona survive for Made In Sg w e top A. -.-

and each per part.

sleeping soon, aftr polishin boots, iron uniform.

so tired.

the day i fall in love ..

omg, that song is soo nice.

yvom tan sent me.

monday blues.

chem was alright, it's always interestin w ms chong.

eng, we played stewpid games to compete against diff gps.

guessed whad's my gp called?

SILVER KNIFE!! ;p that's a korea show.its damn.. omg, its M18 anyway and i watched it 4 times.

then EMAths lesson, omg

i gona send to DC. tried to finish up my hws. left w 2 assignments not complete.

recess_ had to do duty.

had poa, fell asleep.

ms merduati said if we have sweets,she give us permission to eat.

luckily i did brim cos i knew i gona sleep. ;)

geog test.

was not easy.

PSE. just talkin session bout marriage.

helped fads' club to wash tr's cars and got paid.

today we washed Ms Merduati,Mr Thomas Tan, Mr Chow, Mdm Soh s' cars.

tmr they have out 7 more cars. but havin band tmr.

today mdm zhao came to class look for me.

i was munchin on baked corns. ;p

she said, eatin arh?

i smiled at her SWEETLY lol!!

she told me bout me n siying representing e band for some discussions w other cca regardin dontknow what competition.

its held tmr, fr 2-330pm.

i was so shocked -.-

its gona be boring. and i gona miss out e warmup sessions_

5 more days to performance!!

i'm SAD

just sad, purely sad-

over whadd??

many many things.

relationship,

studies.

i dont want to get into another relationship again

i'm trying not to.

i dont want to be hurt, or hurt another person.

but.

these feelings came back for youu,,

there must a reason for it.

i'm falling deep for you again.

its a different feeling.

i'm just standin at te side,

filled with envious//pain//sorrow//jealousy.

i know , i know.

i dont look sad fr te outside.

i'm happy, i'm cheerful.

that's just daz-

you're not mine,

never.

and its hard that you know its yr heart you cant trust,

there's a reason why people dont stay where they are.

baby, love just aint enough

our CAPs ;p wow 

let's do itttt 

e more professional style,  

FADS / ;p wahah- contractor-me! worker-drey!  

they, in e mrt. havoc -lp 

FADS. turned out steff n fesh didnt shout -.- 

hehe, the cheerful us, at marina south. why thomas so buay ba 

yummyie, ;p  

us, by e beach 

US, by e beach- ;p  

hock and i, ;p one of my great best guy-pal, 

here comes e professional fisher, lol =x 

fishing. wahah,at te jetty .steff unhappy 

[first celebration of my bday] at east coast- FADS cycling- to think, drey didnt fall down! 

watchin some movies// enjoying- ;p 

playing some drinkin water games. lol. all ended up goin to e toilet- 

my presents// pink rocks  

whOa, strong ppls who perserve. 

playing twister in e middle of te night-  

grOUp,// over at my house- on my bday ;p 

tues 's band prac was conducted by ms low_

was alright, she's so funny ;)

took bus back, and sat besides her. had a short conversation.

she's so nice ;p

returned home bout 5 plus.

then reached Panjang Plaza at 720pm,, waited for ms koh like , 30mins.

had our dinner at Yoshinoya.

that place was so quiet, except for 2 or 3 ppl.

had chat too-, then we are so like kiddy kiddy kind,

played Scissors Paper stone cos she cant finish whad she ordered and she cheated! lol

went for hair-cut at 10mins 10 bucks,

had to queue, then ms koh helped me told e stylist what kind of hairstyle i want.

omg., cut my hair so short -.-

but pretty like my fringe, slant down. wahhaa__

then that stylist was so funny and talkative.

he asked me,where's yr sis arh.

" she went to buy bread . "

"later she scold me leh, to cut yr side ,"

" wont larr, "

gee.

he was so nice that next time i want to go down for haircuts.

ms koh cant even recognise me after haircut.

then shopped ard.

bot bubble teas.

wanted to do Popular, but closed alr.

was gettin late.

went NTUC. i needed to buy konayaku jelly powder and some ingredients.

i love makin desserts!

then ,she bot my fav, mochi.

omg ;p so nice.

took her car home.

in e car, we kept on takin photos her on hp.

and was dark, so we on all e light in her cars. so funny of us.

we took like 5 plus shots.

returned home 1030pm.

realised that i cant sleep only after 12am plus-

wednesday_--

went to prefects room to do painting.

followed by meetin up w ms ong MH, for maths.

returned home at 6plus.

thomas came my house at 8pm.

then we went lot1.

meet fesh n steff,

ate at Ya Kun.

love their halfboiled eggs.

then,

went panjang.

made me so pissed,

hai_ i dont want to say

i was so angry,

that i threw away e mango puddings which i specially made-

i went home.,

at 1030pm.

next day went to sch

didnt talk much,

angry--

super-heated__

thurs

ay, also got band pracs_

mr lim took us for combine.

and e sec3s had to make our way down to ava room for trs day audition.

we were e last item.

abit paiseh, so many audience.

saw e judgers, mus thank me ,for choosin e judgers.

ms koh, mrs fong and mr thomas tan.

i had my solo, fads was ther to support me, screamed n screamed . wahha

err,

didnt warm up.

so was like,

some notes unreachable n was esp. high.

was out of tempo,

cos we lack of prac-tisin together as a whole.

read e trs comments in prefect room.

not enthu enough.

out of tempo.

after i played my solo,

mrs lim cried.

cos was touchin.

lol ;p

i have to make e trs cry on trs day after my solo. ;p

so must be able to be emotional,

tempo n rythem wise, strong.

today_-

had chemistry test after sch.

fell asleep durin poa.

and i jerked.

and im so damn, embarrased.

band,

take them for drills.

then warm up in music room.

so damn bloody freakening hot and stuffy.

so went ava room for combine.

was so damn damn cold. freezing.

i was shivering.

i played bloo ridge saga solo.

my F was trapped. argh.

not nervous,

but too cold and tired.

fr e many pieces we played

mr lim said e tpets' sat nite fever 1st song was nice. ;p

hehe_

but our that dancing part, was not that groovy enough ba. too dead.

need more prac.

returned home at 7plus.

wanted to go tmr's concert w stephanie,

but.

better stay home finish my owed assignments

super tired in class,

cos slept at 12am plus.

didnt like lessons.

boringg.

slept thru whole geog lesson,,

tr didnt wake me wup,cos kant see me at e back,,

omg, so tired.

and placed a blue collart,a teddy bear assc and korean star poster for ms koh. ;p

see i so good ,,

met ms ong MH n ms liong,

they gave me belated presents ;p

and ms lai too.

ms ong n ms liong bot me, MERCI chocos and a Purple book fr precious tots,

ms lai gave me a small bear ;p so adorable and a little card which she made ;p

quite touched laa..

tanks !

see how impt i am.

on e way hm w fesh, met my kor havin lunch,

wanted to take a nap,

but ms jane was chattin w me over msn bout alot of things.

hai_ iam really upset and dissappointed w myself,,

;(

went town w fads. on e way met ms jane.

so we took same bus lor, 190.

we reached town at 6plus,

went to MY PLAYGROUND to take photo,

had 5 shots.

so cool.

and we were crazy and excited.

next we shopped.

wanted to buy a tee, a brown tee, outside is another pink one.

its too unique, but

they stopped me fr buyin =(

took 190 bus back.

so crowded.

met eric n feng at lot1.

we went to Kaya Toast for halfboiled eggs.

then bot bubble tea,

eric fetched me bac again.

he;s so nice ;)

he's like another close-guy friend of mine.

returned home.

watched incredible tales with kor n didi.

whoa piang,

my didi gettin more and more shuai. ;p

i want to marry him liao. lol.!!!!

omg, so late.

i intended to sleep.

early,

theres band prac tmr.